Joy to the World

2010-04-23T18:36:00.002+08:00

Somehow i regret telling my superior that i am too free at work. The thought of the no. of tasks I have to fulfill and the no. of responsibilities that are coming their way wears me off. Ever since Agnes (my marketing colleague) left, I have not been surfing facebook much, chatting much... I felt like I have no life. BooOo......

Its raining now.. So I'm a little free to blog. Not that I have finish my work, but i refuse to continue. Yet, I must learn to relax and not give myself so much pressure. Work can never be done, so what for rush right? Anyway tomorrow i'm working, so i'll just leave it till tomorrow. =)

Just read yee's blog just now. Alot of emotions as i read the post on her uncle and also the post about her friends.. Hehe...both sad and happy. Her write up about her uncle reminds me of mine. My uncle pass on 2 years ago. Though I am not very attached to him, but i'll never forget the effort he made when my family visits his home. He always bought my favourite hokkien mee. No matter how late it was, he never fails to bring back a packet of hokkien mee for me. I didn't attend his funeral as I was having projects that period of time.

10 years of friendship issn't easy ya? There were lots of ups and downs. The group can be bigger.. if not for the things that happen in these recent years.. Thinking back, I had issues with yee before. Haha...but i'm glad we are still very close now. I treasure this grp of friends alot. We will be going for a short trip in August...Right? *excited*

Haha...But lets think nearer. Hongkong trip in 2 weeks time!! Can't wait!!

2010-04-11T21:52:00.004+08:00

Hi Everyone! I guess I have been neglecting this blog again.. Hehe...and till huiyee reminded me to blog few days ago. Work have really been quite busy for me. Okok...shall not find excuses not to blog.

2010 has been an eventful year. Major things happen around me. Friends whom are attached for many years broke up, friends whom are good friends for years went separate ways.. Well, it has been quite tiring seeing all these. Not just being there to give support, but the frequency or the fact that all these happens during the same time makes me tired. Yet, I still hope the best for all of them, because they are my friends whom I do cherish a lot.

Work is more challenging now as I am adding on a new role at work. I am still picking up from my marketing colleague and hopefully before she leaves, I will be more or less prepared to perform the tasks. Colleagues are ok, bosses are ok. Well, I really thank God for this opportunity to be able to learn. And of course, I would really want to be exposed to many different areas. It will definately be a good training and learning ground. =) Really thank God.

Met up with some of my friends recently. I guess we are all entering into a different stage of life. Our conversations are more of work related and marriage. Its quite scary how some of my friends are getting married or had propossed. haha... Jaecia had accepted the proposal and will be getting married next year. I will be one of her jie mei! haha.. This will be my first "jie mei" session for my friends. Unless someone else get married first, hor yee? hehe... Met up with sherrie few days ago. Thanks for the treat babe. I forgot to bring my wallet that day, left it in the office. We had a short but fruitful time together. I am always encouraged by her life and do see how God has been blessing her. From a student, a working adult and now married. I am sure God is going to provide you girl, so whenever u start worrying, u know God has seen you through and He will continue to bless you in whatever you do. =)

Had a couple outing with my group of girls and their respective boyfriends on April Fools day! Its the 1st time we had this outing...because Im finally attached. Wahahaha!! Most of them are attached for a long time already. Had an enjoyable time at Sunset Grill @ Seletar. =)

-=Cheers to 10 years of Friendship=-

Had a good day at Universal Studio yesterday. We didn't go in as the admission is too expensive. Hehe.. We promised each other that we will be back for the hotels before he start work. Really Thank God for his job. I am happy for him and I'm sure he is happy too. Well done baby! It has been tough for us the past few weeks. Many unhappiness yet I'm glad our hearts are still in one. We love each other. Looking forward to the hongkong trip in may...

2010-02-01T12:08:00.002+08:00

Hello! How's everybody? Its been a long time since I blog. Well, forgive me. I have been really busy. Alot of things happen, yet I don't have the time to pen down my thoughts. Here's a brief one.

My year started off with a langkawi trip with my baby and his friend and gf. We had a great time there. With such a short time there, we manage to cover the whole of langkawi, visit most of the tourist attractions and had the most KFC meals. Haha.. We had KFC for 2 days. Had the cheapest dinner at their night market and that was also our best meals. Cheap and good. However, there were lots of hiccups. We had a hit and run accident. But thank God we are not in the car. Due to that, we lost about 100RM each. Damn angry though... Photos were not uploaded yet... Waiting for some approval. Haha...

Well, so far 2010 wasn't very bad. Met up with some of my friends. Initially there was an offer from Esprit. I was quite excited about it, but i think it wasn't God's will for me though. Well, I've gotten over it. =) Met up with sherrie 2 weeks ago. Our met up was short and sweet. We manage to catch up with each other and she never fail to encourage me through her life. She is happily married. Thank you for meeting up and praying for me. =)

Sherrie was right. I was indeed very blessed. God really blesses me in my work place. People whom was least well-liked, seem to treat me well. This makes my work here so much easier. And as i thought about it, God has been faithful. I was confirmed earlier than expected, just in time for bonus. And know what, the bonus is just enough for me to pay my road tax. Timely. If i were to be confirmed 3 months after i started work, I would not be qualified for my pro-rated bonus. God is good. =)

Chinese New Year is around the corner. I have been spending alot this month! This new year will be a different year. I was just telling jiahui that this is the 1st year we are celebrating New year and Valentine's day with our bfs. Haha.. Its no longer a boring new year. And of course, we are looking forward to collecting more ang baos for our hk trip!

Yes! I will be going hongkong with my baby this may! His graduation trip. The same week as jiahui. Probably we could see each other there! haha...And guess what, We will be going with Sandy and Yilun. So happen they were thinking of going too!! We shall start saving for our trip....

More meet ups this week! And more work outs before CNY. If not, people will stop recognising me. Haha...

2010-01-01T03:15:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010!!!!!!

Its a brand new year! I will do this every year, so this year will not be exceptional.

2009 was a different year for me. A year of facing the challenges and adapting the differences. A year of more emotions involve and of course stepping out of my comfort zone. Graduated in August and a switch from a student life to a working adult life was not easy for me at all. The late nights no longer exist. We all agree that our body is moving a step back and I get sleepy after 10pm while it should be the start of the day when i'm a student. Thinking back, it probably be our start of our "farrer mac". Heh....

God was good to me and He never fail to provide. He provide when I need a job. He provides comfort when I need one. He provides good friends who are so willing to be there for me. And also, He provides me me a boyfriend who is always so willing to do his best for me and for this relationship. The times when i gets so pek chek, the times when I can't accompany him, the times when I have other commitments, he might not be happy but he is always doing his best to accept and love me.

God has been faithful. I might complain about my work, about the working hours and all, but I have good bosses who recognize my work. My salary was way from what i would expect, but I believe He will provide. I pray for the coming year, that I will grow closer to the Lord and I will do better as an individual. Yes, I do want a break through in my career, but more importantly, be someone who can not only impact others but also be a good testimony among people. There are so many things i want to do and learn.

Hereby wish everyone a Happy and Purposeful New Year. Langkawi here i come!!!!

2009-11-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

The source of strength from God...... and HIM alone......

The weekly drinking in of God's word and also being in His presence is always something to look forward to...or should i say, SHOULD be something to look forward to. However, many times we over look all these and our minds are all the "what should i wear tomorrow?" or "where should we go later"...and many many more.... After a tired day, may due to work or any other things that may have caused u to be so drain out, a day at HOF on friday or even on sunday would made my day. Strengthen me and make me feel so much afresh.. Prepares me for a brand new day of work the next day.

Work can be boring. People at work can be irritating. However, the peace in your heart can nulify all these and makes it more meaningful to work. I'm really looking forward to this Christmas season with the Halls and also the project that we are embarking on the 19 December. As i was looking at the photos of the people in philippines today, i just can't help but having both happiness and sadness at the same time. My heart feels for them. The number of people who lost their homes, love ones.. They are so poor and now, they don't even have a proper shelter. Singaporeans are so blessed. Happy because i know i was one of them, who did a little to be a part of this project in philippines to help the poor. =)

Yes, i repeat. Work can be boring. Doing something without meaning will really drag my feet. There are many different kinds of people at work. It really all depends on which sides u will take, the positive or the negative side. It also affects your mood during work. However, i really thank God for a good buddy, who is really kind & helpful. It might not be an ideal job, but after listening to Cindiie, i really thank God so much for this job. Haha...because as said "Cindiie works like a dog". Haha...

I'm also glad to meet up with friends recently. Manage to catch up with cindiie... met the usual clique jaecia and the rest... Friends are really important in everyones life. They were with you through the ups and downs. I don't know about others, but my friends around me are amazing. That is why i really cherish and treasure them alot. I will definately go an extra mile to lend a hand or even try my best to catch up with them. As i'm rather busy now, I still pray for a little more time so i can have sometime to meet up with my friends. On friday, thinking back the times i had with all my close friends really brought me to tears. I miss those days....

BUT... above all.... I'm still happy for where i am now. I thank God for a caring boyfriend who loves me alot. I have nothing else to ask for... He did his very best... even when he is having exams, he still meets me and spend time with me. I felt bad for making him wait for me while i was doing my mystery shopping just now.. Thank you baby. I couldn't ask for more... because you have given me more than what i would have asked for.

2009-10-11T20:11:00.003+08:00

I'm starting work tomorrow!!! ya..its a full time, perm job. Finally rite? Well... Although it may seems not a very good start, however, i still thank God for this opportunity and also that i am able to get a job in such a short period. I did not aggressively look for one only after the HR manager have given me the red light as there are no perm or contract job at esprit at this moment. Well..i do have my own expenses and burdens to fulfill...so ya..since then, i decided to look for a job. It was like less than 1 month. All glory be to God.

Was in church today. It was good to be back to church after 1 whole week of work as i was rushing to finish off wad i can before i leave Esprit and also preparing myself for the new start tomorrow. YES TOMORROW! anyway.. Was listening to Pastor Lim as he closed the service today. He was telling us how he witness the people in Philippines. As a pastor, he witness the need and the cries in the wilderness... It gets tiring after a while... after helping and helping and there are still so much to help. My heart feels for the needies.. for the people who are experiencing earthquakes.. all the disasters that are happening around the world. Will there be sufficient help? no. Will there be sufficient fund? no. But i'm really glad that people all around the world are doing sthing to help. And as for me? I'm looking forward to next year's mission trips.. to wherever it is.. i'm really looking forward.. =) This makes me realise... I do not need to earn big bucks...to live luxury..but as long as i live my life with a meaning.

Had a wonderful 3 months with my boy recently and i've got a Aldo bag from him. Hehe... It wasn't a routine 2 give presents on our monthiversary.. but he was thoughtful enough to surprise me with one! thanks baby! Some outdated fotos...

@ new york new york (Jurong Point) before his lesson on 1 of the thursdays.

Night supper at serangoon garden & Ben & Jerry treats! He is too engrossed with the good food as he had not ate his dinner! Look at his face.. he was sick yet he accompanied me to have ice cream one evening at vivo!

Cafe Cartel @ plaza sing! haha.. He drew me a fake ring! Just with a fake ring u can win my heart!? fat hope!~ kekeke....

A weekend without my family around. Thank God for him. It was mid autum festival. After dinner at his place, we went to meet the others for lanterns! yea.. And the floorball top is mine now. kekeke.. And the next day was his aunt's birthday celebration. KTV & a simple dinner at chinatown. Thumbs up for the peanut butter dumplings!!!

Then... Our dinner at benten! my turn to get sick. Yet i still enjoy my ice cream. He is just imitating the way i smile. So ugly hor? He don't know how 2 smile! hahaha

New day, new beginning. I really pray that I will have good superior..good colleagues... Thats all i ask for. And of cuz, good progression!!! Get well soon bee bee...

2009-09-24T23:09:00.004+08:00

Big create ended. Finally.. After practicing for about a month, it finally has come to an end. I did not regret making this decision to help region B once again. From a G12 leader, to a G12 member.. From a Heart.Sports regular, to a HOF regular only. I have not been helping much.. because i have stepped down. I told myself, after my uni, i will continue to do my best in church. This is the 1st step i take..and i'm glad i did.

It not only helped me draw closer to God, it opens my eyes wider, to see the warmth and the sweetness of people around me once again. Yes, even before the competition, i knew my region was the weakest, and being the top 2 was definately out of the question. We practice, prayed and even on that day itself, winning was never in my mind. We were just out there to minister to the people. We did our very best... All glory to God.

Even after we sang, i was still trembling while seeing other groups performing. This was my first time performing in the Promise auditorium. It wasn't that scary when i was on the stage, but what was in my mind was "Will the audiance enjoy our performace, will our song touch their hearts?".

However, what touches me and encouraged me most was.... This little girl.

She waited for me at the entrance of the toilet. I don't know her at all. Her eyes was looking at mine. And i tot she has something to ask me. I bowed down to listen what she has to say. And she said " You sang very well". And she walked off...

She brightens up my day. When i walked out of the toilet, i saw little joy joy and her mum. She recognises me and she too say "You sang well". Well...i know i can never compare to what has been presented on the stage by other regions, but its not the matter of winning this competition, but whether u have touched the lives of other people. Many times in life, this matters most issn't? Not the results, but the process...

I enjoyed myself last night, be it on stage or on my seat watching the other performance. I'm glad too that kebin was there to support and watch me. =)

Thank you baby.

My brother is making noise again. He wants to go overseas to study while my parents don't allow. Haiz.. another problem.. Just hope he will grow up one day.

2009-09-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

I'm looking for a JOB!!!!! Any kind soul can recommend me a job. I'm running low, running dry.... Sent out a few resumes...hopefully to get some replies soon!!!!

Request by Ms yee yee that she is so bored that she went round reading people's blog and complaining people haven been updating their blogs. Hey, we are busy people ok? We need to work... Came back so tired alrdy where gt time 2 blog. Want fotos just go fb to check out!

Anyway had a great time with Kebin, sandy & bf at Marina barrage. We took alot of pictures! Here are some of the pictures we took...

My favourite picture!

2009-08-26T22:47:00.004+08:00

Some phots taken at our picnic session at sentosa.. Besides volleyball, we can do more! Nice weather too! He has been accommodating, loving... and wats more? Learning to act cute. wahaha!!!!

Have not blog for quite some time. Everyday is somehow like a routine. Work work work.... Miss the school days..where i have all the free time i want. The days when i don't feel like going to school, i can skip class. But when one starts work, we don't have the choice but have to live with the pathetic 10-14 days of leave.

Did not play vball for quite some time. Everybody was so busy. Anyway i will be doing a flea on 19 Sept! do drop by if you are free! Great to have my dear bf who is so willing to help me in this flea.. Hugz....

As most of my friends were saying, we are still at our honeymoon period. haha.. I just hope this honeymoon period will last...

Convo this friday! Will have more pics to upload soon!

2009-08-10T16:36:00.005+08:00

Say goodbye to the old Greenie~

Thank you your accompany all these while.. for the late night rides, helping me during my late night studies, suppering and the many errands that i've made with you. It has been a good 3 years. You have been faithful all these while, though sometimes you might "grumble" and make some noise, but all in all, you have been performing..just that your comsumption is slightly high. Hehe.. I'll miss you greenie...

Some note from my long time regular passengers:
Kevin - Good Riddance!
Winston - Thank you for the comfy rides wherever we go supremacy!
Ah boy - Sad. I didn't get to have one last look.
Constantine - (he didn't get my msg initially and thought i've changed it le) - Well this shows hw long i've not met them.
Yiwei - In memory of Supremacy...I know you have a bad owner this life time...may you have a better one in future! U will always be remembered!! Love, yiwei.

Say hi to the new xiaobai~

Yes. I've did a number retention. I love my 116. So at least i'll remember my green mazda premacy. Drove to bugis on saturday! And i drove my parents to church on sunday. Enjoy driving the new xiaobai. =)

Spoke to kevin online just now. Kinda miss the supper clique. Times are really different now. Yes, i do not have much time now as i'm working and of course having a bf now. There are definately sacrifices that i need to make. But i really do miss meeting them. They no longer call me out for supper.. Its sad though. I don't deny, i do miss the old days. =(

It was National Day yesturday!! Happy National Day! Marina square was packed with people..We suppose to watch fireworks...yet we didn't catch it. TOO PACKED! it seems like a new year countdown! haha.. I saw many people singing along at the national day booth.. Church was good. They sang kit chan's "Home", we sang the national anthem and recited the pledge. Feels so good...

Back to work tomorrow~ Good thing is...this week starts on tuesday..so no monday blues for me. Hehe...more photos to be uploaded on weixiong's birthday!~

2009-08-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

Yay!~ He is finally back! Back with all my pressies!~ haha... I'm happy to pick him up from the airport. I rushed down after a quick shower and was surprise to see 1 of his gd friend's gf there too! she recognise me. At least i'm not alone waiting for them. Guess what? She didn't tell her bf she'll be there too! hehe....both of us were there 2 give our bfs a surprise. They took so long to come out lor. Glad that he is surprised and happy 2 see me at the airport!

I've got taiyang biscuits, pineapple biscuits, some seaweed biscuits, facial masks, jelly, dresses, top, my requested "xiong bao bei" and a cute hp key chain with our fotos on it. haha... quite funny though. I didn't hav enough sleep the past few nites. Yawn....so tired.....

Went to ion on saturday. Its not very fanstastic i would feel, but can try going there for food. Some interesting restaurant. Caught Hangover. Quite a funny movie. Catch it if u can!

2009-07-26T16:55:00.002+08:00

My convocation is confirmed! its on the 28 August, 2-6pm. Yay! i will get to see everyone and most importantly, take pictures with everyone. I'm excited for the convocation so that i'll be officially a graduate! Thinking back, it has been a good 3.5 years.. probably not much during the 1st semester, but it got better after that and i enjoyed the whole of my university life. Made good friends, enjoy partying, chilling, shopping and even STUDYING with them. heh...

I really thank God for the years in SIM. Many things happened.. but God has been faithful to me all these while. It may not be smooth, but its managable. God just knew what i can handle and what i wanted most. Tears just flow as i remember the faithfulness of God.. =)

Manage to have a short catch up with weixiong just now.. He is doing very well with her gf. I'm really happy to see him being so different from the past due to his gf. His willingness to commit in this relationship touched me.. And it reminds me of how blessed i am to have ke bin with me now. =)

Spent some time with cindiie & germaine in town yesturday. We really SQUEEZE time to meet, probably just 2hrs. But im glad we did. Sometimes its not how much time we have for each other, its the willingness and the quality time we had with each other that makes us close. Well, our topics includes work, work & work...of course and some gossips. That was our main purpose!!! but we just can't stop asking each other about work. Too bad caroline cannot join us. The night didn't stop there. I went "The Sail" for dinner with the rest of my classmates. I had a short catch up with them too.. Great to see yiwei there with us, cuz he has been MIA-ing. hehe... The scenery was nice but too bad i have to leave early cus carpark closes early. hai...in the end i walked all the way up the car park track just to collect my car. Dark & hot... argh!!

Its quite disappointing to feel that your close friend no longer make the effort to keep this friendship going. Just like being in a relationship, it takes 2 hands to clap. No matter how much i've tried defending him, trying to make his friends understand why he will react this way, yet now i'm doubting myself. I don't see the point of maintaining it when i feel i'm trying too hard. Though i know its difficult to strive a balance between ur partner and ur friends, but i don't see any effort made. Even the least effort. Now i can really feel how cindiie feels few months back... Hai...friend still comes and goes....

Looking forward to meet jiahui later. Filled my weekend with all the catch ups since i'm very free! haha... Shopping at lasenza next week with the girls! yay!! And looking forward for my baby's return!

2009-07-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

Well well well... It has been 4 days since he left for taiwan. Lesser smses, lesser talk time, lesser msning time and of course suppose to have more sleeping time. haha... BUT... I haven't been sleeping well. Reached home quite late on tuesday as i knock off late. Had company dinner on wednesday and i went for an interview yesturday. Well...not so bad..but there will be a total of 3 interviews. hmmm...Guess i'm really very comfortable in Esprit and wouldn't really want to leave for another company. Just praying hard and keeping my fingers cross.. hope they will give me a perm position.

Nothing much to do this weekend..Not really looking forward. haha..but i have a meeting with the gossip girls tomorrow b4 going to karyn's house for a mini gathering and the viewing of fireworks at her place...

If nothing goes wrong, I should be getting my car in a week! yay!

And......... i'm waiting for his return! and of course my presents! Hiak hiak!!

2009-07-21T23:34:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Bee Bee!!

A simple day. We spend the day walking around town. Then we catch "the handsome suit" at cineleisure movie chamber as there issn't any good seats for ice age 3.

Then, he brought me for dinner. Korean food~ I was quite shock when i saw the price. A huge hole in his pocket. keke....

he just love to take pictures of me while i'm eating!

Thanks baby!

2009-07-21T22:34:00.012+08:00

17 July 2009

ying & bee

For once, she's not in black!

My colleague gave me a brownie for my birthday.

the mini us...trying to fit all of us in a photo..

Jasmine & me

I missed HOF just to meet up with the aussie auntie. Yet she is so late and i have to rush to take a picture with her b4 i leave. Hardly talk 2 her too.... u better come back end of the year so we can catch up again~ Not just me, but a few of us met at shodoku for dinner. Yes, again. I don't really like that place though....

2nd part of the night

Met up with the usual group for a ktv session. It was quite a good turn up and im glad everyone came. =) I always enjoy my night with them... Thank you for the cake & accompany throughout the night!

My photo kaki~

2 of the closer guy friends in the clique

Strawberry cake

Last but not least, my baby gave me a surprised celebration..

a fake "lights off", a secret helper and a birthday cake.

what if i change my mind and decided not to drop by hougang?

Then i won't get my surprise.

my gifts

2009-07-14T22:34:00.003+08:00

God is good... I thank God for the things that happens in my life. In certain extend, i'm created this way for a certain reasons.. I may not feel it initially..but i know now..

As i said, I'm getting used to a life that not just concerns me, but also another person. Its not easy as i'm always me, myself and I. It has been nice so far.. He dotes on me a lot. It has been a long long time since i felt love.. It has been great to have someone with you..

Thank you baby.

Bee's Black berries cheesecake

2009-07-04T16:05:00.004+08:00

Today marks the 1st day of the journey.

2009-06-15T22:31:00.005+08:00

Finally, I've graduated!! It was a torturing week when i have to wait for EG results to be posted as it was delayed due to some stupid RMIT issues back in Melbourne Australia. The moment i received hongyi's message, i stopped whatever im doing and went to check my result, the result that will determine if i shld graduate or not. Heh...true enough!! Bee Bee is a graudate now!!

I really want to thank God for His faithfulness. It was during the camp when the results were suppose to be out. And although i'm really worried for my EG, the week at putrajaya Marriot was great. There weren't butterflies in my stomach even till the very day i hav to check my results. I could sleep well eat well...and most importantly feel the peace of God in me. I could feel his protection and guidance throughout my university life and this time He will definately pull me through. Though only IME results were out on the actual day, I'm really glad... my first HD!!!
I want to thank God again for a temp job which i kinda like it and hope to start off my career from. My mum's friend got me into Esprit, not in retail, but helping out in the HR and accounts department. I should be working there till i found myself a perm job or till they offer me a perm position. shall continue to pray abt it. =)

On our way to putrajaya. I was too tired to smile...haha

In our room. Our homely look. Er...not exactly... just tat each of us have sthing to put on. Hehe

3rd day: Shopping at Alamanda Putrajaya. Trust me, there is nothing. Yet, we bought sthing from ther "why pay more shop" and we had A&W!! The stickers were to indicate that we have taken our temperatures. haha! no lah... its to indicate we have paid for the coach!

Jumping at Alamanda!!!!

We caught sight of little mae & she is so willing to tk a pic with us.

We have been playing with the kids after our meals outside the ballroom. Hehe... This is Shinsiu! Sister Li mei's daughter.
And all the kids! Finally little joy joy is willing to stand still. Issn't she cute?

The last night. We had a photo taking session with the "celebrity". Haha...our camp speakers Pastor Robert & Cecilia Bueno.
A photo with Ms Panama!
Its time to leave... a photo b4 hopping up to the cab to malacca!
This car is for sale....

2009-06-08T22:35:00.003+08:00

29th May 2008

Celebrated wenjie's & wenhui's birthday at crazy hour. Was kind enough to pick them up from SMU as their initial plan was to go timbre. haha... Most of the pubs at chinatown was quite packed.. So we ended up at crazy hour. It was a post celebration for the brothers as their birthday was on the 17th. Had a great time with the rest.. Its really difficult to have everybody around nowadays..

Saw hongyi & teck also. As they were celebrating keith's birthday. Some of my uni friends were there also...

30th May 2008

It was also another post celebration for our dear jiayi. Didn't meet them for dinner as i was having a bad toothache. Watched night at the museum 2 with kebin b4 tat. It wasn't v fantastic though..... but some parts were quite funny. Met the others ard 10 plus....

Everybody is mesmerised by my funky specs. Had a good time spent with the sqs peeps.. Esp guest visits by kunhan & ching guan.

I love them so much, yet they don't seem to love me as much. =(

2009-06-01T01:00:00.003+08:00

Wanted to blog and post all my pics here... But seems like i've very limited time and i'm still thinking what i've not packed. Going for a 5 days 4 nites church camp tomorrow. Honestly, i wasn't very excited...but now as im packing.. I'm really excited lor!

I had so much fun over the weekends even with my swollen gums. Its damn pain la! I guess i have wisdom tooth growing on the right side of my teeth. Argh!! damn irritating.. Even the pics can tell. Crazy Friday and a fun saturday. Spent these 2 days celebrating birthdays, though both are belated but we had so much fun. Enjoyed myself too. And the crazy thing was...i just slept for 3 hrs and i woke up for church and guess what? i went to sentosa after collecting my car. Met the others for vball. I'm damn tired... But a good play. Manage to see shaohua after his long trip to taiwan... Will be playing this coming sunday too. So girls...pls make urself free!!!

Will be checking my results during camp. Kinda wanna get it over and done with... I really pray hard that i'll get to clear my 2 modules. I really wan 2 graduate!!!

Will blog about my weekends after i come back. Together with our 2days 1 nite in malacca! Pray for me!!! shall catch some rest.....gd nite~

2009-05-28T00:43:00.003+08:00

I have not met the guys for a very long time. Not just hongyi & con, but rather the whole supper group. Blame it on me for packing up my activities to the brim, for putting some of them in my "priority list". But the main reason is because some of them have started work and have been busy with their own commitments too.

I'm glad to meet hongyi & con just now. Not just catching up with what they are doing right now, but more of asking how others are doing. Its quite sad that i have rejected them a few times for supper as its quite late... But im glad most of them are doing fine.

I cherish all my friends very much. As much, i would always wanted to meet up with them. I enjoy our conversations during supper...bla bla...And indeed, we have spent 3 years together, be it doing projects or studying together. From meeting all of them everyday, to now, hardly see them. I do miss the old times though... As some were just supper or study friends, not those VERY CLOSE kind...but i do hope to meet up with them soon, like boy & cliff etc....

Had some quick catch up with hongyi. Its amazing our friendship grew and how open we can be. We were there for each other when we were most "CHUI". We will also share our joy with each other, be it his wakeboarding...even though stimes i don't really understand.. or my church stuff which most of the times he don't understand. hahaa.... Im not sure about him, but definately he was there for me during my "down-est" period if there's such a word. And now, due to our own commitments and our busy schedules, we were just updating each other stuffs that are so personal even during a phone call for just 5-10mins... no need to hav a long coffee session just to talk about some sensitive issues. Its not easy for others to understand our friendship and how close we can be.... Not even my close girl friends... But im sure cindiie can understand. =) I don't want to explain so much or would least want to drift away and let go of such close bondings, because i know our friendship is perfectly PURE and would not even feel guilty towards his gf or even if i have a bf.

There was once due to some cases, a certain issue was brought up. What if he is to make a choice btw his gf and me. He wouldn't know what to do. And of course, if this happens to me, likewise, i wouldn't know what to do.. And what boy did..... he chose his friend. =)

Of course, certain assurance has to be made. And im sure he give enough assurance to his gf. *thinking abt some gossips we had at germ's house today* haha....

Cindiie, thanks for asking about me today, which i have been dying to update u about. Have fun in HK and i see u real soon ya?! Miss ya!~!~

2009-05-24T14:45:00.004+08:00

Worship was good today. Simply love the song "beautiful saviour".

Its a simple song, which reminds me of how wonderful, how beautiful is our saviour. If its not for Him, doubt i can be who i am today. Not tat i'm perfect or successful, but i'm able to smile & lift up the name of Jesus with JOY. I'm not call JOY for no reason. =)

I wept. Not because i feel bad or hurt. Because i'm grateful for what the Lord has done in my life. Thank you Jesus.

2009-05-23T13:51:00.002+08:00

Something just strike me and kept me bothered for awhile. I talked to ruth and true enough its still too early to judge or make any decision. However, it still bothers me abit.

On the other side, i think i shouldn't be bothered by it so much and to pray about it. It won't be easy definately, but i believe in prayers. Prayers do miracles. =)

Suddenly all my plans were canceled for today. If i knew it earlier, i could have worked lor! but nvm... i am not feeling tat well anyway.

Hmmm...we are still going for above & beyond. Promised Germaine long ago..and i jus nagged at alvin. Hope he will be able to make it!

tts all.... Enjoy ur trip ying!! Hope to see u soon!!!!

2009-05-18T21:29:00.001+08:00

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour
God of all Majesty,Risen king
Lamb of God,Holy and righteous
Blessed redeemer,Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

2009-05-17T14:00:00.007+08:00

I have been slacking throughout the week. Sleep, watch shows, go out. Feel quite lethargic. Heh.... So what have i been doing? A brief account of the week...

Monday:
Was a last minute meet up with michelle & nihui with ying ying. Think i've blogged about it earlier. so read my post on monday.

Tuesday:
So much of going out.. I slept ALOT on tuesday. All the weekend activities and the overdue-d lack of sleep, i make sure i made it all up. Heh...Literally on my bed the whole day. Met ying, xiaoli and jiayi for a swim. Our usual workout day. Have not swam for about 3 weeks. Feels so good. Den we met alvin for dinner... Cuz i haven seen him for a LONG time!!! Ever since he got Alva!

Wednesday:
Another nua day. Did nothing and just wait for cell group at night. heh.... Shiok!

Thursday:
Went for a interview and felt cheated. It was an MLM company. Humph! And since kebin has a half day off, we met earlier and watch Wolverine! Finally, a weekday we don't hav to rush. Since it was still early after our show, we decided to take a ride to sentosa since we both have our islander card with us. Quite an experience! And Happy Birthday DOYLE LIM JIAXING!

@build a bearnite @ sentosa

Friday:
I got a part time job from weiyuan! Was assisting Marketing & design for their HP team building event. I was stationed at upper thomson casuarina prata house. Shiok. I ate their famous tissue prata. Hehe...and i had fun working there with my partner who is also from SIM-RMIT. We have quite a number of common friends.

Had an early night on friday. After HOF, met xiaoli & alvin for early supper. Idiot vin. Got a cheap business class tix to hongkong. Had a long chat with vin.... I truely feel quite sorry for him. Its quite sad to hear such things from him and to see him being bothered by it, however i hope he will settle it and will be alright soon. No matter what, im sure we as friends will be there to help him.

Saturday:
Though i was home early, doesn't mean i get to slp early on friday. So i still don't have enough slp b4 i was up on saturday morning. Was cracking our brains for places to go the nite b4 and we decided to jus catch a movie b4 moving down to marina barrage. And it so happen that there was an event going on at marina barrage, some art festival performance.

Marina barrage & the gallery

The gallery is quite interesting. Historical stories, decorations are nice. The main idea is to create awareness. So pls save water singapore!

We came across this alley which take random shots. The night scenary at the rooftop. It was SURPRISINGLY crowded.Sunday:

I was wonderful to hear Pastor Chui preached again. Her msg never fail to inspire me or touched my heart. I may have disappointments recently... but i thank God for reminding me that He is faithful. He reminded me of how he send people when i was down, how he make situations not as bad when it can be worse. The times when i think its the end when He brought light to darkness... Sometimes i can be so stupid and be so bothered about certain matters when i forgot that there is a God who will make things possible just for me. Im imperfect. Nobody is perfect. But He can help me, guide me through to "perfection". My sense of "perfection" is not "flawless", "no faults", "wonderful", "successful" and etc... my sense of "perfection" is also accepting the imperfection. Why are we so bothered about making mistakes, doing the wrong thing or even at a wrong time? We are human beings after all. =)

Im so glad that i have a God that plans and guides my future. Thank You. I can be quite silly sometimes. I'll just pray that i'll look onto HIM for guidance and believes that whatever He does in my life is for a better future. I'm happy now.... As i won't be buried with all questions and worries....

Last but not least, Happy Birthday the Yip brothers. Called wenjie last night to make noise again. Haha.. can't wait to see the rest of them. Will be busy this coming week. Many meet ups as well as birthday celebrations. Guess will have more photos to share... stay tune!

2009-05-13T22:19:00.004+08:00

Tentatively, nothing is going to happen. I'm not sure if its good or bad. Well...just see how it goes. I don't know how long will i let it be in this way... i really don't know. I don't know how shld i react or behave now.. Though i told myself i hav to take a step back, yet im not sure if i can do it. I'll try... =)

I miss hanging out with jaecia they all. I miss them. Spoke to her just now and i'm really looking forward to the next meet up, which is next week. Hopefully the bday boys are free. haha....

Going for an interview tomorrow. for a 2 weeks job. Hopefully i can get it. Cuz it will end jus in time for my church camp! yeah!

2009-05-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

Not sure if im thinking too much or what..... Insecure? maybe. I don't know how should i feel....Should it be longer? I'm not sure. And i don't know how long can i let it drag.

Haiz.......

I hate all this. The emotional fluctuations.

2009-05-11T23:30:00.004+08:00

Exams are finally over. Its time for bee bee to take a good break.. Well, instead of resting, i've been out since sat. Hah! Yet, i enjoyed myself....

Was out the whole sat. Sang KTV, walked around, ate dian xiao er, walked around and finally, we went to 愛琴海. I've long wanted to visit this cafe, but no chance. It was nice.. Just that the drinks there are abit expensive. Yet.. another wonderful day, wonderful company.

It was Mother's day on sunday! I treat my parents to Aston. Heh...since my bro is working tat day, so we decided to have a meal there. His chef was nice. He gave us additional beef steak and chicken chop. Wow...ate to our hearts content. =) And we continued to have our dessert at veneza ice cream.Went to meet michelle with ying ying today. haha....literally travelled the whole of singapore today. Nihui came to lunch with us too! Had a good catch up and promise, the next meet up will be real soon, when sandy comes back from korea. Went to michelle's house too. Her baby is really cute!!
Had a heart to heart talk with yingying on our way home. She did manage to open me up abit. I'm glad i could really thought it through.... Why would i want to expect when i don't want people to expect anything from me? why would i be so affected by the insensitivity when i know there is care. Sometimes i just hate myself to be so over sensitive and over emotional.. hmmm........

2009-05-05T01:11:00.004+08:00

Hmmm...since im free and refuse to touch my notes again...i decided to blog.

Im really quite curious to find out what happen to my 2 dear friends, but i couldn't get any info from them. Humph! Friday u better tell me the full story!

Got some insect bites last friday while "chilling" at some playground. Argh!!! And the bites are getting itchy-er. Finally, i decided to use my only med, mopiko...

Studying IME the past few days was so much more relax as compared to the other sems. I'm not sure why but probably its our last semester and we just seem so heck care. Haha... Can't wait for the papers to be over.

Tentatively, i'm meeting my beach friends for some coffee session after hof.. Yay! Sat will be another fun day and at the same time get some groceries for mothers' day! i've decided to cook for my family on sunday. No beach vball this sun though........=(

hmmm...... some thoughts. I use to be quite negative if people were to tell me "you look better if u were to slim down a little" or "yes, u shld exercise" or something along that line, indirectly or directly telling me i should loose weight. Yet, i start to look at another perspective. I would see as exercising is a way to keep fit, or even training myself to be more self-discipline and not keep compromising in doing something. Not say i'll be on a diet and force myself to loose lots of weight just to look better, but probably to look healthier. Many people thinks i'm much tanner now.... And i'm happy with my tan. Just that the freckles are pissing me off! argh!

2009-05-02T06:30:00.002+08:00

Things have been fine so far. I hope i'm not rushing things. Had a long chat with jaecia this afternoon. What she say is not totally wrong, but somehow its not my character bah.. Well...I may be traditional, yet i can be very expressive. I don't really hide my emotions well and will do whatever i feel.

I hope things will go on smoothly. Though stimes i know its beyond my control but the One above.

Time 2 go to bed & back to books again tomorrow.

2009-04-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

Working for starhub at westmall on saturday was quite a torture for us. Haha...we sweat like nobody's business. Yet... We had fun with the spongebob & square pants. Diane, as usual, was being funny too. That makes our job not so boring. But....i wish more ppl were working that day.. cuz wads so fun about working for diane is the people we got to work with. Hehe.. Patrick was really cute. Can't get a good shot...but ya....this was my best as i was ushering the kids down the stage after taking pics with the characters.

Then, i caught sight of this cute little girl. Her mum was looking at the packages when she left her girl with us. The moment she saw us with the pop corn..... she smiled as though we're giving her the whole tub. haha...the boy beside her is her brother. She is damn cute!

And...Back to reality. Studying at terminal 2 mac.

2009-04-29T01:25:00.002+08:00

the last 2 papers are dragging me abit too much. argh!!! How i wish these 2 papers will be over soon. yup..actually very soon. Next friday i'll be free! no more papers in the near future!!

So much abt my exams. Had a great sweat out on sunday with the usual beach people. A really good one i would say. All of us suffer from muscle aches...haha... And before that, i was working for starhub on fri and sat. Wad a tired weekend....

Yet, i had good accompany over the past 2 days while i study for my papers. Thank you!

2009-04-24T13:20:00.002+08:00

joleen's convocation

2009-04-20T03:46:00.003+08:00

Some outdated photos...

This was taken on on 10 April at mono. It was kaiqing's birthday and it seems like a mini sqs gathering. Great to see all of them again... Especially some of the guys whom i doubt they remember me, cuz i could hardly remember them too. Haha...

I helped out in the UOL convocation on thursday & friday. Some cheapo lobang... But it turned out to be quite fun. Saw few familiar faces & ya.... i helped them with their graduation gown. Photos will be up soon after joleen uploaded them. Congratulations Joleen for your graduation!!! hehe.... There was so many things on my mind when i see people walking around with their presents, flowers & their cert... Its great to graduate issn't? Especially i think it would be fun this coming august when i could see all my classmates again! I miss them so much!

Caught Fast & Furious on saturday. Didn't really enjoyed the movie as i was having a headache. The weather is killing me la!! Manage to have a great lunch & i bought a pair of haviannas! yeah! I think we got a great deal. 20% off & 2 free movie passes with the purchase of 2 pairs. Yeah!! hmmm..... i'm glad we did touch on the topics which i didn't expect we would.. And most importantly, I enjoyed myself!

Went to a cooking class with ruth today. It was an impromptu decision! but it was fun! Learning how to cook the different dishes and all were quite simple. I used to think of going to these kind of classes after i get married. Hehe.... I love to cook, but hate to wash.

When the chef taught us this dish which needs to deep fry, ruth & i were looking at each other cuz both of us hate to wash the oily wok. hahaha...

My goodness, my favourite of the day.

Nice. We thought of improvising this dessert. Hehe....

Creme brulee. Yummy! the problem is the burner... which could make the top part crispy.

Chocolate ice cream with the biscuits sponsored by Ruth's company.

2009-04-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

The vios is finally confirmed when my mum signed the papers today. Yup yup..after much persuasion or i shld say temptations from my dad, i stick to what i wan, an economical choice, a 1.5L vios sports. I think others were too much for me... of course if i earned more in future, i would change to a bigger car. My dream car, a SUV.

Have been waking up very early recently. All thanks to my mum. Running errands these few days... Very tiring. And tomorrow...I'm hoping to at least study abit... I really need to discipline myself alrdy. I kept telling myself i have to start early..but till now, i've yet to start. Haiz....

Just came back from a swim. Shiok! i prefer swimming to other sports. We have been posponing our swimming plans for the past 2 weeks. Glad we make it today..

Yawn......i need to slp alrdy........

2009-04-10T01:30:00.004+08:00

Just came back. Feeling kinda emo.... Can't really describe in exact words.

The visitation was quite weird. But i'm glad i went. I just want to show support. The moment i step into the ward, i saw the familiar faces looking at my direction, i just wanted to cry so badly. I don't know why. i miss them...... alot........ I should say he just puts up a very brave front infront of us. He don't wan us to worry.. But the harder he tried, the more we feel for him. Seeing jaecia's eyes turning red made me even more emo... We can't do much but just our presence to give him support. And also the additional thing i can do is keep his dad in prayer. I really hope the twins will be alright. Its tough as both are preparing for exams and projects.... But ya...I'll uphold them in prayer. The catch up session after that was good. Too bad i didn't bring my camera. Really miss all of them. The times when we meet almost every week.. So much fun....

Had pizza hut with hongyi this afternoon.. Manage to have some good conversation with him today. I'm not sure if its because i'm very used to my life these years that cause me to feel this way or i'm just too comfortable hanging out with older guys that i could really relate to.. i duno...

I just can't help feeling emo......

2009-04-08T03:50:00.003+08:00

My new love. But mine will be in White. All thanks to weiyuan today for accompanying me down to the showroom, gaving me a better idea of what i should expect and also assuring me that i had a good buy. haha... He is a car lover. So yup! Good research done before going down. And now, I'm really quite excited for its arrival in July. Hehehe.... had a good chat with hongyi, boy and jane jus now during supper. So funny.. And i had a fall! damn paiseh. Sinful sinful... Haven been having supper for a long time! Gonna eat lesser tomorrow.

Will be going to some showrooms tomorrow again. It was the plan last week for me.. But my parents went on monday.. So ya.. Now main motive is to accompany hongyi. I need a haircut. Haiz..

Watch Shinjuku incident. It was alright.. But some part were quite gruesome. hahaha...... Anyway heard of some bad news today. Kinda worried.. But i'm not sure if i should text him. I hope things are fine and i'll continue to uphold ur dad in prayer.

2009-04-07T12:20:00.002+08:00

Celebrated our dear nihui's & qibin's birthday at Lot 1 last week. I think this is the 1st time i celebrated for them after we graduated from sqs. Had fun that day talking about the past. How i wish we could turn back time.....

Counting down to 6 & 8 May. Exams!!! I haven been studying though i kept saying i wan to start early. Alright alright... I have to study abit tomorrow.

Yeah! going Toyota showroom! Shall blog with more details soon!

2009-04-05T16:22:00.002+08:00

A lot of things have been running through my mind recently. Be it the sudden changes or thinking about the future. I appreciate the amount of time i have now since i'm not working... And would try my best to spend more time with myself so that i could really think of what i should do or shouldn't do. =)

Mummy voice up that i should take over the loan for the new car once i started working. However, to me, it will be a burden especially in this economic downturn. The loan, maintenance and petrol. Seriously, i doubt i can afford. Therefore, i will be looking at a small car, preferably mummy is willing so top up some money.

Standing at the alter call with a weary heart. I don't know what my future will be like. Will my pay be sufficient to support the loan, givings to my parents, daily expenses esp with the car and church commitments. I really want to fulfill my church commitments, not only paying tithes but also to missions. I am really counting on God for a job that could fulfill all these. =)

Next week i'm going to start my revision... And also visit some car showrooms. I'm excited though... At the same time, worried. I don't really need a car actually...But due to the amt we owe the bank for my 116, we have to get a smaller car so as to pay a lesser premium every month. May the Lord guide me through..........

2009-04-01T03:34:00.003+08:00

Some photos taken on sunday. Suppose to be just the 4 of us..and we met yongjian & friends. Made our session not so boring & tiring. Haha...

A long time since i took a train. I miss the feeling of listening to my mp3 on the train while looking at the people, their attire and their behaviour. I miss the little time for myself.. Usually, it would be "in the car, off it went, thinking of the right way to the next destination, listening to what the radio DJ has to say and destination reached".

I had a little time for myself this evening while i was traveling to town. Manage to do some self reflection and i remembered what my mum msged me last week. I am not someone who will show my care & concern to my family members. I seldom msg my mum even i know she is working v hard in KL. And this time, knowing she wasn't feeling well and still has to travel down to KL, i decided to msg her and ask her how she was. Her reply was simple, "i'm ok. Thank you sweet heart." It just brought me to tears. This show how important my message was to her.. And i feel it. I should have done this more often... I need to be a better daughter. =)

Life has been slightly different recently. A little different. I don't know if this is the way it should be... but ya....i need to pray about it. =)

2009-03-28T04:52:00.002+08:00

Was reading blogs of some friends earlier on and it brought some thoughts that i would like to share. Quite random...but ya bear with me alright?

I was looking at the pictures of some of my classmates. I miss them.. We (sandy & me) didn't turn up for some gatherings... hmmm...i guess we weren't comfortable if either one of us couldn't make it. But i do hope we still have the opportunities... It will be good to catch up with all of them.... just like how i did with my poly friends.

Sometimes i may be irritated with my parents....for the discomfort and pressure they give me. The never ending quarrels due to work or even little things at home do make me "hate" them sometimes. But i still thank God for preserving their relationship. Not easy to be in a marriage for so many years... especially when both think differently... But bad things always come to an end. Remembering the nights i was at my playground praying & crying... the time when i just walked out of the office crying... the times when i had to console my mum, at the same time crying... the times i had to be the strong 1 at home making sure that things are ok. Now, i did not ask or talk about their business.. mainly because it will just make me feel so burdened and helpless. Be it good or bad, i don't want to interfere. I somehow sounded to them that i don't wanna take over... too much for me i guess.. I just hope to get a job and live a normal life. A normal happy life.

ok..enough of heavy matters.

Had great time with yy & xl at kbox this afternoon. They took leave for our batam trip, but was posponed. We sang and dance...haha... But i think we didn't sing enough! We'll definately sing again soon....yes girls?!

Watched 2 movies in a row... Thanks ah for that horror show...

Tired...time 2 sleep.

2009-03-24T06:54:00.002+08:00

Besides playing volleyball, we plan to meet up for some drinks. And this is the 1st time we hang out together. And of course, the 1st time seeing all of them with alcohol. Funny people. We had so much fun singing too... too bad ying wasn't there to join us. =p

Xiaoli taught them a new drink. Lemon drop? ya i think so.. While they happily drink, eng chuan, known as the "forever late" came later with 2 girls.

I think the new picasa rocks! Had quite a few new templates. And its easy to create collages....

I'm wearing jiahao's specs. Mind you, i couldn't really see with the glasses on... I'm seeing circles circles and circles.....

Had so much fun that day. And i slept till 3pm when my dad wake me up. Sent him to the airport and decided to go for the career fair at suntec. We were so late and in the end, we were just in time for their closing. Failed. Shopped around as there's nike sale.. And hongyi came out with a crazy idea... SHOPPING at MUSTAFA! yup... met winston and off we go..

Mustafa is well known for their casio watches. 20-30+ you can get a pair. haha....But... we bought other stuff instead of the watches. Met con for supper @ the famous yong tao fu stall before going back.

Sunday service was good, with P.chui's sharing. It wasn't a message that answer my prayer.... but just a normal heart warming message that reminds us about having God in our mind. my tears just flow during alter call... Reminding me of God's love for me... always...

Promised Mayfen to go for her cheerleading competition. We rushed down and later knew it was delayed. Nevertheless, the event was fun. Saw her performing.. Good job girl. And know what, SHE GOT 1st!!!! Congratulations Bulldogs!

2009-03-20T02:36:00.002+08:00

I think its more than i expect it to be. More than just being myself, more considerations to be made. I didn't expect it to turn out this way... And i guess none of us can honor what we said from the beginning.. Cuz things will never gonna be the same as before. Never.

Sad to feel that.. Sad to say that.. Its quite disturbing and it happens too often. I'll try to be the "best" that i could.. but whether if its appreciated or not i don't know.. But being my best is all i could do. I forsee problems. Problems after problems..

2009-03-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

I was burnt!! All thanks to the sun on sunday afternoon. Manage to get abit of workout on sunday as i decided to attend the morning service. Woke up real early...But message was good... Sometimes its good to attend the morning service.

Happy Birthday Hongyi! Celebrated his birthday on monday night, planning to "surprise" him with a cake at his block downstairs. But ya..."surprise" cuz he doesn't look surprise when he saw us. No Fun!

Went for a jog yesturday with yy & xl. We decided not to spend on kick boxing anymore...but will dedicate this day for exercise. I guess we'll go swimming next tuesday. I guess the jog was much more effective den kickboxing lor.. Don't u all agree??

Shopping with Germaine. We didn't get much, or rather she didn't get anything. I jus bought a pair of FBT shorts, dumbells and a scrub glooves. And i went back home to sleep shortly. I have been sleeping abit too much recently...hahaha....

Buffet tomorrow.... More things happening this coming weekend! And there goes my 1 week break. Will be back studying next week. Exams date are out. 6 & 8 May. Means i have to start studying early. =)

Looking forward to church camp 2009!

2009-03-13T17:27:00.001+08:00

I've just submitted my LAST project!!!!! Yes, the VERY last one (hopefully). So so tired... I could have finished it so much earlier if i did not go out for supper last nite. Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself at supper with weiyuan yesturday!! So much to catch up...but so little time. I think i did blogged b4 that he is one of the few friends whom i SELDOM see, probably 2-3 times a year? But we'll still have alot of things to talk about.... Not the very surface kind of conversation, but i could say, we know each other quite well. Oh....His dad bought a new car!! Still as big as b4... haha.....

I was re-watching part of "tang xing feng bao 2" just now. Yet, i still cried as much as the 1st time. So much for being emotional...... Anyway, i got to prepare myself for HOF alrdy! cya!!

2009-03-12T03:54:00.003+08:00

I happen to type the wrong blog add and it brought me to joyfulworld.blogspot.com. The 1st word that caught my attention wad "God, i hate you". Makes me ponder why would people hate God? Because their lives weren't what they wanted? or because they've known God and think He is not a good God. Sometime God gets the blame for nothing, what more about us.

Have been busy with my project and test. Daily dosage of mac's ice lemon tea, fries, nestle coffee and also tiesto & armin 05 and 06. Haha... I've changed my studying habits, slightly..... I started earlier and end earlier. Which is good! But i think tomorrow i'll be burned. One night to finish my EG essay which is only half done. Need more coffee tmr....

Come to think about it, after friday, i'm really quite free. More than a month away from my exams. 2 papers. I really hope i can score well because i can focus more.. And now, i have more free time, means i gt more time to study. Have been thinking of the past lately.. And how things will be still be the same... But i know its definately impossible.. Probably is the emo feeling came knocking at the door of my heart once again..

Missed 2 weeks of kick boxing! Argh!!! i need to work it all out! Swimming! Beach Volleyball! Jogging! All in! Well...its time 2 sleep............ Its a long day tomorrow................

Ruth: the biscuits u post on ur blog.... ITS TEMPTING! i bought 1 just now!
Yee: The last conversation with you confirm make me gian! I wanna go surfers paradise!
Ying & Xl: Lets work it out! work it out! work it out!

2009-03-08T15:35:00.005+08:00

Last night was quite a wierd but happening night. Initially it was xiaoli & me only. But i saw many people whom i don't expect to see. Many things happened.. Shocked? Yes. Scared? Yes. But Fun? Also Yes.

Manage to catch up with jiayi as she was also there last night. Then met wenjie & friends also, and we decided to join them. My eyes almost pop out towards the end as i was really tired. Being the sober one, as usually, i am responsible to take care of everybody & make sure things are alright.

Some photos....

This girl wanted to kiss me.

With wenjie & bowen

Seriously, ever since she gt bf, she is seldom out with us.

Miss those days.....

I'm his saviour of the night.

1st photo of the day & the best one. Haha...

Why are they so "happy"? There's a reason behind.

Lets sing together......Lalala............

I remembering saying most of my female friends around me, or should i say all, are attached (except for a FEW). Complaining about having companies to go out with, therefore i'm much closer to the guys. But now, most of my guy friends are attached (those that i'm closer to).

I was quite sad with the fact that most of them are attached. Not that i'm not happy for them, but probably i have lesser people to hang out with. People do get busy once they have gfs ya??

Today's message was perfect. It make me realised how i should expect things and how i should give generously, without expecting any thing in return.

All along, i willingly give/sacrifice/help people around me, be it in their school work, giving them a lift to somewhere, giving them a treat, showering my care & concern. But deep within me, i'm hoping for some return... or maybe at least some appreciation. I was feeling quite emo recently because i feel disappointed, not appreciated. Many small things that happened caused me to wonder if i should stop doing all these. Being nice to people whom are nice to you issn't difficult, but being nice to people whom don't even give a damn or people who just take all these for granted is way too much for me. It sucks actually.

Lord,

Help me to love and give to people unselfishly.
Help me not to expect for a return.
Giving should be a beautiful thing issn't?
Shouldn't i not grieve upon what has happened?

My giving should be ongoing, unlimited.
Because i have a provider, the Lord who has unlimited storage.
Whoever, Lord, help me to do my best.
Because it pleases You, and that should matters the most.

Amen.

2009-03-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

Have not been doing much recently.. As IME test and EG assignment due is round the corner, I've been spending my free days studying with germaine in school/kap. Yup, studying with UOL people now as i've lesser RMIT friends now... =(

Had fun @ sentosa last sunday. Celebrated sandy's birthday too.. Its great to know that your friends can clique well with your other friends. Haha.... So much joke & fun even after we went back on sunday. Well...but i had a bad day. Mild food poisonning i suppose. I wasn't feel very good after dinner. And i woke up around 12 plus, feeling worse. And guess what, after talking to hongyi on the phone, i puked. GrrRrr....... Hate the feeling.

Hmmmm..... I think i'll do the islander card. And will try make it for every vball session. Alright.... Time for G12.

2009-02-26T01:51:00.003+08:00

A new song learned. A very meaningful song indeed.

A random day, yet a beautiful rainbow. Is this a sign of hope? i guess so.

For the glory of it all. He came here.
We will never be the same.

2009-02-24T16:19:00.006+08:00

An unsuccessful trip down to sentosa on saturday. Throughout the week, it has been sunny.. thinking that it would be a good time 2 get myself tanned. But...before we could get ourselves sweat out, the rain came. Boo hoo..... we rushed to a shelter nearby & get ourselves a drink.

@ the gift shop

rain rain... go away

We were so bored. Initially was a drink... then we decided to order pizza. Argh!!! how to jian fei like tat!!!

Suppose to meet up with one of my friend too tat day. But he was late... So by the time he came down, we decided to leave already. 1st and unsuccessful session.. Too bad... We'll be there this sunday!!

One very interesting fact. For the past 1 year, rain @ sentosa did not last more than half hour. Ermz....on sunday only. I wonder if its true...... haha

Alright...since ben had uploaded the photos.... There you go.... my last CNY visiting.

on the way to aihui's place..

a group photo

Finally.... home sweet home...

2009-02-17T17:38:00.010+08:00

I think i'm getting lazy. Have been dragging myself to put up those photos. These were taken more than a week ago. Haha...

Visited michelle 2 weeks ago. Its her 3rd child. A baby boy. Though im not v close to her n not always her point of contact, but i'm glad to be there with her, to congratulate and encourage her during this period of time. As it is a prematured baby, she was quite worried. Should be celebrating her baby's 1st month..

Then, we rushed off to meet yee for her farewell dinner. @ Crystal jade.

And so.... we sent her off the next day. It was quite a sad moment though many tried to hold back their tears to prevent the tensed up situation. She's in brisbane now. Had a talk with my mum yesturday as initially, we are thinking of going melbourne. But now, my mum ask me 2 go with my friends. Now the air tickets are really cheap. Was still deciding between perth or hongkong.

yee & her family

all of us @ the airport

the shunqunites

me & yee

Bye bye.

Celebrated teck's and Con's birthday on monday. Was tiring. Woke up early to work, rushed off to send her off and then rushed to meet the guys for dinner. But it was all worth while. I haven seen most of them for a month already. I bought a cake for both of them as their birthday was a day apart.

happy birthday guys!

us @ waruku

the guys

the bukit batok 三朵花

what r they looking??

teck & jasmine

the west side 三朵花

3 blind mice

While others are playing pool.....

When i got bored....

2009-02-15T14:09:00.003+08:00

A post on Valentines Day

It is a day to celebrate love, a day of flowers, a day of chocolates, a day for dating couples. Well, i used to hate valentines day. Chinese new year is my 1st hatred. Valentines day comes next.

Why do i hate valentines day so much? I hate it because people around me have people to celebrate with and i will get so emotional during this day when i wanted so much to have a bf beside me, to enjoy this joyous occasion. But till date, it never happens. Come to think about it, I've only celebrated 1 valentines day but it wasn't official because we weren't together.

However, this year was different. Not that i was looking forward to this day, but i'm not feeling how i would feel usually. I had a wonderful time on friday, though i was really tired after the projects. It was a simple catch up session with xiaoli and yingying. It feels good to confess how i feel towards my friends around me who has a bf/gf. Walking around west coast park, having our usual talk about the past. Though we saw couples everywhere, i think i handled it so much better as compared to the past.

On the actual day, i was in town giving out flowers to the ladies and taking photos of couples after couples. After a while, cindiie & i got so tired... and felt that we are being so superficial. Our smiles lost its meaning after sometime. Haha...Not that we weren't happy for the couples, but hey, its quite tiring to smile for the whole 2-3hrs. Had dinner with a few others after work and we went for dessert in bugis. wah... the desset is good! Will definately return for more..

So, my valentines day this year weren't bad after all. Town wasn't as packed as i expected. I din feel as emo as i expected. So ya...it turn out quite well. Perhaps feeling a little emo at 7 in the morning due to an sms, but i know he meant well... haha....

Happy Valentines Day people!

2009-02-11T12:14:00.004+08:00

I need a diet plan!! I've been feeling bloated for the wrong reasons... Took lots of pictures over the weekends and i look ROUND! Argh...Ain't taking pictures anymore...till i slim down. My goodness...................

anyway, i like the color of my hair. Hehe...... And Huiyee is in brisbane now!! The atmosphere was alright when we were at the airport sending her off... but i jus couldn't held back my tears.. Got caught somemore...

Job ended. Project started. Family matters ongoing. How i wish i could go overseas too............. Sometimes it doesn't help by facing the problems.. it could be better doing the opposite. At least emotionally, you won't be affected. =)

Life...

2009-02-02T22:14:00.006+08:00

Last friday, my company invited the "lion dance" team. Don't really know what you call them... Had a fun time (actually i took this opportunity to take a break from all the unfinished quotation). Hehe... So happened i brought my camera out.... *snap* *snap*

Don't have hof that day. So i met xiaoli, yingying & alvin for dinner. Dinner at sushi teh really cost us a bomb man.... *snap* *snap* again....

As planned, we proceed to alvin's house to play wii. ROCK BAND!!!!!

Taaadaaa~~~

Shiok........ And as usual, met hongyi n con for supper. Though we still do some catch up....But ain't the same. Don't really know how to say....But its different. I miss school... I miss hanging out with them after school....

And the next thing. I want a new look!!

2009-02-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

The day b4 i went malaysia. I went to meet them.... And since most of them turn up, i kept snapping pictures. But jaecia dun allow me to post most of them...haha...

Happy Birthday Keith.

2009-01-28T21:44:00.005+08:00

- 16 Jan 09 -

Rushed down to meet my poly friends in town.. They had dinner first and i met them for coffee at tcc. Its great to see them once again... Though i'm quite outdated about the their stuffs...But its good to catch up abit about their current status. haha... Everybody changed.. However, some of their jokes remained.

- 17 Jan 09 -

Shopping with ying & xiaoli was fun. Stupid ying woke me up so early and i couldn't sleep anymore. Had just 5-6hrs of sleep. Nevertheless, we carried on our shopping plan.

First stop. Jurong point. Met them there as i'm not driving. Bakerz inn was having promotion for their hot chocolate cake. yummy......

Then we proceed to bukit timah market 2 meet alvin for lunch. The weather was so damn hot. And then, the 2 vain girls went for their "mole extractin session". Haha...

Finally, its time 2 shop. Its ard 4 plus already lor when we leave bukit timah. The bus ride was crazy. Took lots of shots.... Come to think about it, we nv take bus together b4.. Haha...quite fun.

After far east & wisma, we went to bugis. They really plan to conquer the shops manz. Went to find yongsing as she is working at shokodu and we ate to our content. Well...Lots of free desserts and drinks.. Thanks yongsing...Don't know who say that bugis will open till late night. But when we started our walk in bugis village, most of the shops are closing. Well done....

I told them i didn't want to shop. But...i bought a few stuffs and cost me ard 60 bucks. Booo....

2009-01-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

my goodness... I've lots of photos to upload.. The gathering with my poly mates was fantastic. Though we have not seen one another for a long time (actually just me as they meet quite often), we still have lots to talk about. We plan to meet again in feb. Haha... And next, the shopping trip with ying and xiaoli was good too. I enjoyed myself very much and we snap alot of pics on the bus. Travelled to many places that day.. Tired but fulfilling..

Work was tiring. No MSN. Anyway, most of my colleagues will be on leave tomorrow. Means i'll be very free.. Haha...

Heard some bad news these few days.. 2 of my friends are in a crisis. And they are my very good friends indeed. Although they have yet to update me with the details, but i do hope things will be fine for them. Tk care girls...

I'll be going out tomorrow.. its been some time since i saw the whole bunch of them. And early sat, i'll be off to KL. Actually my only motivation is the angbaos...hahaha.... Looking forward to the weekends once again!!

Hereby, i wish all of you a Happy and Blessed Chinese New Year.

2009-01-14T21:50:00.004+08:00

Count down to 2009 @ richard's place...

I do miss the old clique ALOT... But somehow things are different now. VERY different i would say.... A different new year spent.... with a different group.... but nice.

3rd day of work and i'm surrendering already. Its not about the job scope, it probably is the time. I think i've been too used to the night life that i am encountering problems waking up early. And i mean really early. Work is quite alright.. But i feel i could learn more... The only thing i like about working there is the knock off time. 5pm! and i reach home at 5.20!

I've never been so looking forward to the weekends so much. I'll be meeting my poly classmates on friday and saturday. Yup....Same class but different groups. Haha...and I'm hoping to do some shopping. As much as i've said i'm not shopping for new year this year.. but i'm gonna just get a dress...just 1 ok?

Some people say i've gone mad after working. Yes indeed... My mind has been sing "human" every now and then... the reason behind..quoted "because we are HUMANS and we are MADE OF LOVE". Well said....

2009-01-12T02:26:00.002+08:00

i got to wake up in 4 hrs time and i'm still here blogging. Well.. In fact, i went to bed at 11 plus and after an hour, i woke up. Not sure why, but i woke up with all sorts of thoughts in my mind. After an hour of entertaining those thoughts, i decided to go online. And the 1st thing that came into my mind was Evangel's website.

As it is a new year, the new website was launched but i've yet to visit it. As i started reading the blogs of pastor dale and also the members in church, i realised i made the right decision. Pastor Dale blogged about disappointments.. Exactly what i'm feeling right now.

I guess everybody faced difference phrases of disappointments. When the other party fail to deliver things he/she promised or fail to keep up to your expectations. But i know... no matter what, i have a God who never fails. EVERYONE can...but GOD won't.

It is very encouraging reading the post. And ya...another thing. I had a great time in church today. It is so wonderful to be ready and have enough sleep the day b4 service. I sat there, drinking the word of God with such peace in my heart. Pastor bringing out the phrases in the bible that i just read the night before and its so fresh in my mind. The feeling is awsome.

There is this great urge to spill everything out... but i don't want to. Because i know it will be quite awful. And part of me feel it is useless... So...Just let it be..

But...i'm fine. Definately..

First day of work tomorrow. May God grant me the wisdom and strength throughout the day. =)

2009-01-10T22:30:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, after much has been said, i don't see the need of constant reminding or bringing out new things to say. It gets tired after all. I won't be surprise if things change and promises failed. Be it whether i'm just purely emotional or TOO emotional, i'm gonna hack it. Because i think i've done my best in keeping things the way it suppose to be. Disappointed.

Anyhow, yesturday was DEFINATELY a blast. I was quite affected initially as i am not sure if i can make it. And to cut the story short, i made last minute plans and went down to habourfront with ying to pass the car to my dad, so he could fetch my mum. We were already late and the queue was out of control. But good thing, we manage to get in.

While queuing....Met Leon while waitng for Armin...

And here he is......He started off with Ferry corsten "made of love". Powerful... Then not long after, we move around to look for trina.. Then back to the usual place. And after i saw weiliang... Its the end.

After playing with the funky specs, i started playing with alvin's cap!

And we continuing playing 5-10 and "black sesame". Haha....

Germaine & i start entertaining ourselves....

At about 5am, he played "burn with desire". I just got out of the toilet and rush down. Then got to know weiliang and hongyi were just infront of armin. Haha.... His last song "Human". Its a happy finale song. And everybody goes home happily.

Bye Armin. See you again...

2009-01-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

Had a bad day. Woke up with a terrible stomachache and headache. Couldn't really lie or sit... Terrible. Decided to take medicine in the evening and that doesn't help. Not long later, ard 9 plus, i msged alvin to send me to the doctor as i really have no energy. =(

He is nice enough to send me to the doctor. And the exact quote i msged hongyi. "I go in, he tk my temperature, say fever. 38.3. Den ask me lie down, tap on my stomach 2x, hear 2x, say stomach flu. Den i leave the room liao. Less than 5 mins. 3 different medicine, $65 burned."

Yup...If you know how i feel when i'm already very broke. But i figured out that if i don't see a doctor and i feel really bad in the middle of the night, nobody will send me to the doctor as my parents are not at home. =(

My body is still aching man..........

And i'm 1/4 done with my taiwan write up. Jiayou Bee....

2009-01-01T03:35:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year !!!!!

Its 3.40, 1 January 2009. I just came back from richard's place. Its great to meet them and i had some catch up with terry. Terry has a new gf and i think she's pretty. Good job!! hahaha...

2009 Resolution

1. Pick up kick boxing and other cardio classes. I need to keep fit manz..... putting on weight. =(
2. Study hard and graduate by June this year.
3. Community work/missions. I've always wanted to do something meaningful, but lack of opportunities.
4. Get myself a good job and start to build up my career.
5. Grow closer to God and read the bible everyday.
6. Start spreading the gospel once again and win souls for God.
7. Save up for my new wardrobe and a new desktop.
8. A trip to taiwan/australia.
9. Stop thinking about the past and live for the future.
10. Sell off all my clothes from SHOP WITH JOY

2008-12-31T01:25:00.002+08:00

Its 31 December 2008. I'm inspired to post after reading cindiie's blog.. And cindiie, your video is damn emo. I can tell you are feeling emo when blogging. But.... lets step into 2009 with faith that it will be a better year (though the economic reports weren't good). But as i say, by FAITH. =)

2008 hasn't been kind to me as well. Its suppose to be my last year of studies and i flug 1 of my modules. This results me to stay another semester just to complete my degree. Well.. Its a year of transition to me. Its a year of no more guessing games, but trying to heal. However, its more of "escaping" than facing it. The family hasn't been quiet. I just had a blust this morning. My mum had been busy throughout the year in malaysia. My conversation with dad has decreased drastically.. My brother has been slacking way too much. Certain decisions he made doesn't make sense but he is too stubborn to listen to people around him.

What i did over the entire year?
Grown closer to my uni friends.. Had more suppers than usual...Study till early morning when exams are near. Start to appreciate trance (thks to hongyi) and i'm still influencing the others. Haha...

Went for a short bintan trip with yee, hongyi and con. Its quite a budget trip and i'm glad it happened. It was a "nua" trip.

Had the most happening birthday celebrations with different groups of people. And i got my 1st st james member card during one of the celebrations. Thank you everyone.. I feel so appreciated... so touched.

Went for singfest 2008. Yup, free plus being paid. Enjoyed working with cindiie and others..though i knock out straight after the event. Grown so much closer to cindiie (which i'm glad).

Went zoukout 2008. Yup, another free plus being paid. This time working with Ruth. I've grown closer to her too. We manage to hang out more this year, shopping and have meals together.

Had the wierdest supper with zaid, ben, jesperl and my so call "shuqunites" whom i don't remember seeing them.

Watched the least movies this year. After the end of the 5 years "unclear" r.ship, watching movies became a convenient thing. My movie kakis were hongyi, hongyi and hongyi again.. Occasionally with alvin or wenjie.

Had the most tiring trips ever. KL + vietnam + Taiwan. I was practically out of singapore for a month!!! First trip to vietnam was an eye openner.. And had the most drama scene with that singaporean in vietnam (if you've heard me complaining abt him you'll know). Had the most enjoyable and longest trip with my friends in taiwan.

Well... although 2008 wasn't a good year for me, i met good people, experienced more things than before. Grown closer to jaecia and we start to have heart to heart talks. Schooling and projecting with wenjie was fun. And i'm quite surprise that he is quite open up towards me, telling me stuffs that i had never knew about from his brother. Had the first stay over where i'm practically helping him with his project..or shld i say doing it for him. But sad to say, the group weren't tat close anymore. Most of them hav problems or having the other halves. Kelvin's first gf after knowing him for so long. Its great to know how much people trusted u to share with u their personal stuffs.

Not only him, hongyi has his first gf too! i mean not his first first, but first gf after knowing him. Getting use to him having a gf wasn't easy. Many things have to change and me being me, i hate to hang out with couples means i get to see him lesser. Too use to tell him every single thing....thats y i had difficulties. He became my closest friend of the year...and still counting...Boo......

And before the year comes to an end. Alvin also follows the trend. He gave me a shock by telling me he's together with this girl whom i just got to know last week. He was teased by me and xiaoli.. But of course, i took his word. CANNOT PANG SEH ME AH.....

Had the most exciting trance experience with Ferry Corsten. And of course, with xiaoli, yingying and alvin, it made a perfect night.

And.....just now, on the 30th December, i had the most enjoyable kick boxing class with yingying and xiaoli. Thank you girls....

2008-12-30T16:01:00.003+08:00

The family was VERY loud yesturday. All the way till 7 in the morning. I could only fall asleep at 7. But i manage to arrange some of my taiwan photos into the respective folders.

I'm glad i vent it out yesturday. I realise i don't really dare to talk things out face to face. Probably i'm scared tat i won't say it all out. No more anger... but i'm not sure how long these will last. Anyway.... shall see how...

Thanks cindiie for that kind and short catch up over at msn yesturday. Greatly appreciated. I miss you!! gotta meet up soon....

Ferry Corsten on 27 December 2008

It was quite a blast that night. What a closure before 2008 come to an end... Was there with xiaoli, yingying and alvin. Yiwei came to join us too... And its weiliang's birthday celebration. Happy Birthday!

Next exciting thing. Armin Van Buuren. 9 Jan.. Welcome 2009!!

2008-12-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

2008-12-29T02:21:00.003+08:00

I'll still feel comfortable even after so long. Heart beating fast and butterflies in the stomach. Probably i've yet to get over the entire thing. I don't deny i still feel quite sian after seeing the picture.. even though i knew it long ago.

1 year have passed. I dare not say i'm happy for them because i'm selfish. I only wish that one day, i'll be numb towards this. I think God has been really good to me that i've yet to witness it with my own eyes.

New year is coming. Hope that it will be a great 2009.

2008-12-28T15:28:00.003+08:00

Christmas Eve 2008

I spent Christmas eve with groups of people whom does not know each other. Was together with zhiwei and ruth after church and i brought them to meet jaecia and gang. Count down at movida wasn't very happening but was fun because i was with them. Manage to squeeze into powerhouse and df after jaecia was gone. haha.. Ruth and i stayed with wenjie till 4.

Count down on christmas eve was nothing compared to counting down to 2008 last year. As jaecia loves to celebrate christmas, we decided to have a "loud" Christmas. And also most of them won't be free on NYE i guess...

I'm quite happy that i'll be celebrating the coming new year at rich's place (if nothing goes wrong). I really do miss the old cliques. Although most of them found their gfs.. hehe...

I'm damn shag now. Need to rest b4 i blog abt last night @ weiliang's birthday celebration...Had just 3 hrs of sleep.....

2008-12-28T14:53:00.002+08:00

Zoukout 2008

Finally got all the pictures from zoukout. Thanks to Ruth's friend. Hehe... As mentioned, i had a wonderful time at zoukout 2 weeks ago. Well.. the pictures shows.

The crew.
The bosses are Ruth's friends. There were 2 part timers with us too... We were busy snapping pictures b4 the sky gets darker..haha

Us and the bosses. We took pictures again while working. They are nice people though... I purposely put one of the photo to prove that i'm working. keke....

While we were busy bringing the crowd to gaming how, Ruth's cheer friends called her. And she did some stuns infront of the crowd. Everyone was like cheering for her.. I think this is a better way of drawing crowd than asking one by one to fill up the lucky draw form. haha...well done girl.

And the main highlight, the fireworks at 01.30. Its so beautiful as its just right infront of our booth!! At eye level. I would say gaming how has a good camera.. Its quite difficult to get those shots though...(if i'm not wrong)

2008-12-26T23:38:00.003+08:00

Came back early today after HOF. Yup.. seldom i'm at home after HOF, either out suppering or meeting friends. Well.. I got all my gifts from zhiwei as i left them in his car on wednesday after service.

Went for countdown with zhiwei and ruth. I brought them to meet kelvin, jaecia and his bf and wenjie. It's fun hanging out with them (always) and kelvin gave me, jaecia and wenjie a card each.

This is mine.

I'm really touched after looking at it. It almost brought me to tears and make me realise how he treat his friends. Now i understand why his birthday celebration has the biggest turn ups, it also make me understand why jaecia will feel emo when he announced he gt a gf. Nevertheless, he still willing to sacrifice time (to accompany us on christmas eve) and effort (for making the card).

My christmas presents.

It brings such joy openning up all the presents, smiling at every single one. Thank you tc for the starbucks voucher (though i did not notice its starbucks when u pass it to me). Thank you mayfen for the lip gloss. Thank you carine for the shower gel. Thank you david for the belt. Thank you terry for the chocolates. Thank you zhiwei for the crackers. Thank you joleen for the bodyshop gift set, cookies and cream mirror, pouch and the heart warming note for me. Thank you jaecia for your photo album.

well.... I woke up early this morning, accompany my mum. A thought came into my mind. Should i work for my mum for another 3 months since its so difficult to find a temp job now.. or should i just whack any temp job that comes in, even if it doesn't give me any intrinsic value. I was hoping to hear some feedbacks and comments from friends, and this particular friend had disappointed me. Sorry for using such a strong word, but dun ever assure me if u ain't gonna deliver. I asked myself if i am sensitive or was it true that i THINK TOO MUCH sometimes, but guess what, i've gotten over it. Its not the matter of whether you've done it or not, but its the timing. How important does it matters to you. I don't think i ask for alot.. WHATEVER. There are so many things that i would wanna say.. so many. But i think i have to stop here.

Probably its God's calling. I need to divert my attention back to God. Ask for His help and opinion instead. I thank the Lord for today. Its a heart warming movie. And i'm happy i manage to catch up with kevin through sms.

I'm meeting xiaoli, ying and alvin tomorrow. Can't wait to see them. And can't wait to get my present from vin tmr!! hahaha.... gd nite everybody.

2008-12-24T03:23:00.004+08:00

Went for a few interviews and i'm still looking out for jobs. The market is really bad now (from all the feedback the agents gave) and these really scares me. Though I'm still studying now, i am quite stressed up because i'll be graduating next year.

Over the weekends and the past few days were full of shopping. I accompanied people shopping for other people. yup! exactly.. But since its a season of giving, i too bought some gifts just to bless others. Its been years since i prepare gifts for people. And i love being the "santa claus" once again. Town was packed with people. Was out with wenjie on saturday shopping for christmas gifts since the others weren't free to meet up, the pathway was packed to the brim. Madness. Human traffic to be exact. Thought monday was better, BUT NO!! Met ruth to shop on monday and i promise, this is the first time i was so stressed up to get gifts as the shops are closing at 10. I think we were too hang up shopping for our christmas outfit that we have forgotten about the main agenda, which is to get christmas presents.

Main thing settled till i received a call from jaecia telling me that we'll be having gift exchange on wednesday. Well done kelvin. I called him to scold him as i thought i was done with all my shopping. Argh.. And i couldn't get those bodyshop gifts as he insisted the present must be got "xin yi" one. So.. i went imm and jp this afternoon to shop. Hehe... Saw weiyuan at imm though we cancelled our meeting today. The idea of shopping alone was good as i manage to get most of my presents. But.....just one bad thing. I was deciding on 2 pairs of slippers for my dad when i wish hongyi was there. I immediately dial his number and wanted to video call him to show him the 2 slippers when i realise he is not using a 3G phone. My goodness!!! HTC touch sux.

I shopped more after i met jiahui. I suggested going pepper plus to take a look as they are having sale. We came out a bag of clothes. yeap..again. But those are for work. ITS CHEAP! I realise i haven met jiahui for a month and we need to update each other quite abit. Hehe.. Had our dinner b4 we headed home. Did some last minute wrapping and writing and yeah!!! I'm done with that...

The following pictures were taken at Mono last friday.

Its Christmas eve! Hereby, i wish everyone a Merry and a Blessed Christmas.

2008-12-21T18:57:00.003+08:00

Heroes 2008

2008-12-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

I think i'm not really prepared for the working force. Feeling kinda scared and was also angry with myself for being careless. I could have secured the part time job since it is quite flexible. 3 times a week.. till April. Hmmm...i guess its just not God's will.

Well, on the other hand, i got a 1 month temp job on monday. Thank God. I need not go down for an interview and i was given that position. Anyway, its just walking distance from my house.

Pictures are still on the way. Sorry for the back dated pictures. But i promise to do a write up on my trips. Vietnam, taiwan and the recent zoukout! yup! It was quite last minute as Mayfen called me on friday, asking if i would want to work for zoukout. Keke....i was just telling hongyi the day b4 if its free, i'll go. Ya... so i went. Its quite an experience. The place was huge and its so nice to see the sunset and fireworks while working. well..our job was crap. We spend most of the time talking and going to the toilets. haha...Thanks to mayfen's friend. They were more like our colleagues than bosses. Sasha, Above and Beyond was good. Good job. I left at 6am and manage to catch 2 hrs of sleep b4 i wake up to prepare myself for church.

1st service after 4 weeks. I really do miss church during my trips. Although i was super tired, but i still enjoyed. A thankful heart.

1 Thess 5:16-18
"Be joyful always, Pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Thinking of the late nights for the coming weeks does scare me off a little. Christmas and new year eves and birthday celebrations. I'm excited for christmas this year. Because i'm preparing gifts again. Hehe.... People like sherrie and jiahui whom i don't see often... Please find time to meet me. i miss u girls too much!

2008-12-10T15:31:00.002+08:00

hey people! I'm back....

After 4 weeks of continuous travelling.... I'm finally back! Home sweet home...hehe.. I had lots of fun in taiwan with the other 7 (the onizuka gang). I think we can be models of onizuka already. That hongyi influences us.. at least 2 pairs each..

I guess i miss the company more. Though there were a tiny little misunderstandings or sometimes due to the waiting time and stuff... there's abit of unhappiness.. But overall we manage to handle it well. Good job everybody.

Now its back to reality. sobx...... Its time to look for a job and finish my last semester. =) I want to thank God too for my results. Though its not terrific, but i'm happy with what i've got. Its kind of scary to check our results in taipei.. Afraid that it will affect our mood. However, overall everybody did well. hehe......

Feeling quite emo now.. I guess after looking through the pictures, i'll feel even worse. Will blog about my trip after i've receive all the pics. Have to wait...cuz there's 7 camera.

2008-11-25T03:05:00.003+08:00

I'm back. again. And now, from vietnam.

Was terribly sick in vietnam during the 3 days of exhibition. And i'm still not well. Have been sick for a week already. I just can't get use to the water, food and weather probably. I stayed in the hotel for 2 full days. Yet, I'm still having my "sexy" voice. Haha...

Planning to rest at home tonight. But, got a msg from hongyi once i touched down. They were planning to celebrate meiyan's bday at keppel marina. So i went down 2 meet the boys and Cindiie was there too!! We couldn't have enough time to chat my dear. We need more time to catch up. After my trip alright?!

You know girl, everyone has their own problems. Every family has their own problems. It aches so much to hear of what you are going through. Its tough, definately, but i'm sure you'll be able to handle it. I'm just a phone call away... anytime k? I love you...

well... after so much of emo-ing during my stay in vietnam, i'm so happy to be back. I was just telling my mum, its really no joke to be a stewardess. Salute Ms Aw!! Called weiyuan, planning to meet for lunch initially but he couldn't make it due to some family matters. Manage to do some catch up over the phone. I guess its just nice to check each other out sometimes, even a short phone call. I seldom meet up with him, but we'll catch up with each other once in a while on the phone. =) I hope he is fine though he sounds so just now.

Thought of giving kevin a call when i'm back. But i guess he'll be too tired. Think i'll call him tmr to check out how is he. I feel bad... Though we don't contact much, but i still feel alot for whatever he is going through. He has to take over his dad now, to be the head of the family. I'm glad he has a good and supporting gf all these while. He don't have a smooth life, he works for everything. Mature and i know he can handle anything that he was tasked to do. I guess thats why i fall for him many years ago. haha... Never regret it. Now, i really hope he, as the pillar of the family, will stay strong. Jiahui & me will continue to uphold him in prayer. =)

So many things in mind. Need to think of how to squeeze everything to my bag. oh my...i saw hongyi's luggage and think of the things that he's bringing... I'm afraid my bag couldn't take it. Because i have the "hiao" factor. haha....

2008-11-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

*cough*

I'm in vietnam now!! have been sick for the past few days. I think almost a week already. Argh... I feel like getting rid of my nose. Can't stand it...

Well... the stay here is quite good. Its a break for me from the busy city. I appreciate the breaks...but it can be tiring though...haha..

Received a message from jiahui and lingyang just now when i on my phone. My heart just sank.. just like jiahui says, his face still flashes now and then in our minds when we visited him in the airport. I'm feel very bad that i couldn't attend the funeral as i'm in vietnam. I feel pain and sad for kevin. I hope things will be fine for him soon. I know alot of his friends will lend him the support that he needs. As for me, I'll pray for him, for speedy recovery...

Was kind of emo. Was in the hotel these 2 days, resting. Took some medication and i'm feeling ermz...abit better. abit only. A sudden thought of my past while i was lying on the bed, trying to sleep. Saw jay chou's interview yesturday as he was talking about his new song. Yes, the song that i've put up a few posts ago. Alot of emotions, alot of thoughts. Of course i know i shouldn't let this dwell in me. But its still painful to think of that...

and NOW my best friend is attached. Of course i'm happy for him. It also means i have to get use to him having a gf.. Reminds me of how doyle was attached in the past.. Haha.... And of course, mistakes won't repeat itself. =p Not everyone know what i mean.... but those close ones will know...haha....

Alright.. i'm actually looking forward to monday, to be back in singapore. Nothing feels better than home. My bed, my space and etc. Will do some last min shopping on tuesday and meeting weiyuan for lunch if everything falls into place. Hope to meet up with kevin too...but i guess he will be too busy settling his stuff and studying for exams. Well....i wish the best for him... May God heal his wounds and bless his family.

2008-11-18T01:55:00.003+08:00

Just came back from KL. 4 days at the exhibition hall @ KLCC. Tiring i would say. People work at barclays while i work for my mum these 4 days. 4 days without internet, without tv. Sounds like church camp ya? haha... Sales was not bad. My mum is giving me a share of commission. Hehe....adds on to my taiwan shopping spree.

Next stop. Vietnam. Kind of rush.. Was sick on the 3rd day of exhibition. Lost my voice. But i'm glad i manage to help.. Looking at how the salesmen deal with customers, i learn alot. I'm very impressed by how my mum handles people. =)

I feel quite bad towards certain things. Not say i'm at fault, but probably the timing issn't rite. Many things around me has changed. Its something that i cannot control. Hopefully things will be better after i come back.

I miss everything here. I miss the entertainment, the fun. Jus a short meet up with the guys just now really makes my day. Really looking forward to the 26 Nov. There's alot of things i need to do after my trip....alot!

Alright...time 2 rest... =)

2008-11-09T14:33:00.002+08:00

During alter call, i was reflecting my life and thinking how much have i done as a person, fulfilling my responsibility of a person. Have i been living a meaningful life. Reflecting back, i feel everything seems so vulnerable, so meaningless.

I pray that God open new doors of opportunity, for me to impact people's life once again. As a sister, i always think i'm right. Reprimanded my brother for the silly decisions he made. From young, i wanted to help out in homes and do voluntary work but no actions taken. Now he is ahead of me. I feel so shameful.. I want back the drive, the heart for people once again.

Cosmic gate was good. Germaine and tim was quite sian as the music was quite progressive initially. Towards the end was good. Weiliang was there with us too! celebrated des's birthday yesturday. It was a big grp. Totally expected what happened last nite. But still......

Really hate myself sometimes. For no reason, i'll be emo. I guess its internal. I need to handle it myself.

Leaving in a few days time... Meeting jaecia and weixiong later... Others probably will meet them after i'm back from taiwan. =)

2008-11-07T12:54:00.010+08:00

Exams are finally over.. After few months of projects, tests and exams... its finally over. I was telling hongyi probably we'll not be used to it now. Everywhere we go, we'll carry the lappy or books with us. Now tat we're so free.. we might not know what to do.

Hmmm... before i go KL, I'll need to pack my room and meet as many ppl as possible. So exciting. And i had my first meet up with edward and the others for dinner at aquamarine @ marina mandarin. We had buffet at a very reasonable price. Thanks to gretchen!!

Terry is like busy eating and taking pics the whole night.

I think this is the 1st photo of the 3 of us. Poor gret was sick yesturday.

Looks like trina and jol are wearing the same color cardigen hor? xinyi was damn high last nite. Even without alcohol. Haha

I love this pic the most!

The guy tat is flying off for 2 years...

jol, me and gret.

Met up with the volleyballers last sat @ brekos holland. This time with the guys. I've not seen most of the guys for really long. Its great to meet up with them and had a little chat with all. I realise the common topics now are "what r u doing now?" or "how's work?". We can't escape all these anymore. We're no longer students. i mean soon.... =)

the girls..

the guys & me. We make all guys to take with us.. individually. Hehe..

The group of us.

2008-11-02T04:58:00.002+08:00

Got the disc from alvin just 2 days ago. I love this song. Ya ya...i know its an emo song. But i just love it. Its kinda sad when u really listen carefully to the lyrics. =)

Finally let it out. No more misunderstandings and awkwardness (i hope). Its really encouraging to know that you are important isn't? Probably thats all you need to do to make one feel good, even after all the shit.

Yesturday, pastor Chui was sharing about encouragement. Its not about how God can encourage you, but more of how can u be an encouragement to someone else. While i was at the alter call, names just flashed across my head. Its easy to encourage when things are smooth or when the other party is in a worse state than you, but its really difficult to be an encouragement to someone when it doesn't benefit you at all, and probably by encouraging, you'll lose something important. Probably to some people, its pride. I cried so hard during the alter call, remembering all the occasions where i've been nasty to people around me, or i did not grasp the opportunity to be an encouragement and impact people's life. I really want to be someone to be used by God. I want to learn how to love generously. I did not hesitate to send out messages to people whom i think needs encouragement. Though some i still pull back, i hope one day i can really pluck up courage to send out those messages.

2008-10-27T16:57:00.002+08:00

I always always feel so good, so refreshed after church. Its like guiding me back to where i should be and how i should feel towards certain things in life. I wonder what will i be like if i were to leave church.. Nothing good i guess..

Life has been boring. Studying every night. Paper after paper. Seeing the same old bunch at farrer mac, talking about the same old thing. And whats worse.. studying the same old few modules. I seldom got to see my parents at home.

I think its God's will for me not to get the barclay's job. Now, i can spend more time with my mum. Will be going KL after exams to help her during the 4 days exhibition. After which will be going vietnam to help my parents in a trade fair. And then, the long awaited taiwan trip. =)

Pretty excited about my post exam activities. Haha.. But at the same time, i'll miss 4 weeks of church. =( i think this will be the longest time that i'm gonna miss church.

I have to meet up with the girls soon before i fly.. I miss hanging out with alvin n gang too! Exams exams go away!!

Have been looking for jobs.. I'm quite confused. Not very sure what i want.. Will have to pray abt it. =)

2008-10-19T18:59:00.002+08:00

Never depend on your past anointing for the present battle

Learned something new today. Sometimes i feel guilty for not paying attention during service. No matter how much i wanted to bring my attention back, my mind just drift off somehow. But i'm glad i caught this today. =) We christians always have someone out there to fall back on, our heavenly father, Jesus Christ. Many times, we prayed and wants God to answer our prayers fast. we want God to be consistent to answering our prayers, but have we been consistent towards God? So what if in the past i did many things for God, so what if i'm a leader? I am at the same position now as the unbelievers if i choose to leave church and be on my own.

So what if you claim that you still believes in God. Whats the big deal of just believing and not wanting to go to church. No sacrifice, no renewal. If we stands the same chance of going to heaven, then i might as well live my life just like anyone else and just tell the whole world i believe in Jesus Christ. why do i need to force myself to wake up early on a sunday and don't allow myself to slack and give excuses for not going church, right?

well, have been studying the past few weeks. Its getting boring. A few things happen over the weeks. Had some problems with the taiwan group, but i'm glad its solved. Celebrated huizhen's bday last night. Haven meet the whole group for very long. I do miss the fun i always had with them. Hehe... most of us had fun play darts last night. At least its better than seeing them drink.. =)

Going through some emotions recently. Getting quite impatient and unhappy about certain things. Don't know if its just me being sensitive or what.. Sometimes i wonder if i don't see things so seriously, probably i won't feel that way.

Went to the Barclay's interview. Its my first interview and i'm quite excited about it. However, i think i did badly. I was so nervous and was not offered the job on the spot. Guess i'll not get it. Which means....no extra income for my taiwan trip.

2008-10-08T05:24:00.002+08:00

It was only recently that i realise how "unprepared" i am for things that are most prob to happen when i start working, when i start to meet more people. A little scolding or a little unpleasant words that people say can push my moral down and cause me to ponder and be bothered about it the entire day. Not only that, i can never hide my emotions. Never.

Had quite a long talk just now while studying. How i wish i can do it. Somethings that i should have done long time ago, but worried that i might not be able to take it. Not that i have gotten over the entire thing, not that i am really ready to start a conversation and be the "man", but i think it has dragged way too long and the akwardness does cause uneasiness among the group. Which i do not wish to.. Yup, there are questions that are not answered and i do not wish to know the answers. But hongyi was right. It has dragged way too long that there is no point bringing up the entire thing just to close the chapter nicely. But as i was saying, whatever i did was just to protect myself.

If i could control myself, it could just have ended 5 years ago. It boils down to how emotional i am. Literally allowing the feelings and emotions rule me. But of course, i too wish i could act as if nothing has happened. I really hope so.

I don't want anything to affect the state of my emotions now. Because i feel i'm doing fine. Seeing friends suffering because of relationships does reminds me of the past. And i'm glad i'm out of it. well...hopefully one day i will have the courage, to be the man!!!

Yup, just to side track. I think the boys are not treating me as a girl anymore. And the worse thing is, they literally tell me straight to my face. Grrrr.....And.... Y all taiwan hotels do not have 2 single beds in a double room. Y are all double beds!! But... i'm still looking forward to the trip! Just that i don't really like the idea of sharing a bed with someone. Its not a chalet!! I need good sleep!!

Studies have been on schedule. Everyday a chapter. Enjoyed my dinner with the girls tonight. Trina!!! better send me the photo soon!

2008-10-02T00:39:00.009+08:00

Some updates..

1 sept ~ Michelle's wedding
Michelle's beautiful moments. I wanted to get more pictures before i post. Seems like the photos will take ages to reach me. Hehe.. She is beautiful issn't? And the naughty bunch decided to keep all the wedding menu till the last one who gets married. Slowly counting.. haha.. but now, She's the first.

I'm indeed glad to see nihui that day. It has been years since i last saw her. She is so pretty now. I think its the power of love. haha.. Really looking forward for the next gathering in november. Waiting for our dear organiser, miss ying ying.

23 Sept ~ Jaecia's birthday

Its a weekday. She is having her block leave, so she decided to make full use of her leave. Went to BISHAN, yes, BISHAN to have dinner. Though it was a small group while most of them couldn't make it, but i'm sure she enjoyed herself. Went down to lebar for a drink and i realise the 2nd level of lebar has live music. Quite cool.. Probably will drop by one of the weekdays to hear them sing again.

26 Sept ~ BBMFT bbq @ Caribbean

We took hundreds of photos that day. Most of us were there. Its the last semester for most of them. Time past real fast. Its the end of 3 years. Its our study period as all classes have ended. Which means we won't see each other in school anymore. Its getting kind of emo though. The frequent class skipper, me, now feeling bad and guilty. Regret not attending the last MC class. But there will be another bbq session after our exams(i hope). Its amazing how the big class can be so close.

The night continues as hongyi and i left early. Went to meet his friends @ RVP. I was only attracted to this event because of the openning, DJ Yukun. But by the time we manage to get in, Yukun stop spinning already. The Guest DJ wasn't fantastic. After much persuation, Alvin came down ard 1 plus. The crowd was crazy. At the end of the night, all of us was drenched. Germaine was damn high after 2 cups. It was Boy's birthday that day! And he had fun, though it was a trance event. Haha...

2008-10-01T03:56:00.002+08:00

I was reading vanessa's note on facebook. Today is the 36th batch last day of school. While reading, if i did not fail IF, this would probably be my last day too. Damn emo, but i'm glad i still have one more semester to go. I'm unwilling to let the school days off! Yet, there will definately be some people whom i'll miss. I'm grateful to all who have impact my life. People whom i've worked with, be it projects or doing the pushcart together, or even been out for coffee or even the aquantances. I'll miss those familiar faces in school in jan 2009. *sad*

Had been a happening week. Had dinner with jaecia on her birthday, class bbq at eddie's place and also RVP. Went to KL over the weekends to attend a wedding. Yup... And tmr my parents are going to bangkok. And yup, Bee bee has to start studying again.

Have been looking out for jobs recently. Dying to get a job. However, my mind is not fixed. I'm not sure if i should do internship. I'm not sure if i should just apply for a full time job and see what is there to offer. I'm not sure if i should just apply for a part time job since i've got just 2 modules next year(if nothing goes wrong). I'm indeed very keen on being a buyer or merchandiser(which the pay sux). And i am not sure i would take up a buyer job if its gonna pay me way below it should for a degree holder. Well well well....all the "not sures" definately going to drag till i'm back from taiwan in december.

So glad and looking forward to our trip. Hmmm...shouldn't i be more worried about my studies first? Pushcart @ junction 461 is officially closed. I brought back all the unsold ones. I really need to arrange them nicely b4 i really get busy studying. And i need to clear my waredrobe asap! Its bursting!!!!

2008-09-18T07:02:00.003+08:00

Just got home from celebrating the boys birthday. Boi, edwin and mike. I should be sleeping now...but perhaps i've just got something to say about this special day.

As usual, i enjoyed thoroughly. From 11 to 5. We sang our hearts out and everyone (i suppose) had fun. Be it singing or dancing. I guess when one gets really high, one will feel rather emo. Well well well.. i was fine till everyone in the room starts to get emo. I almost cried when i hug cindiie. Yup.. I did not drink at all.. But i could feel the tense and how cindiie feels.

The unwanted, the brotherhood among the guys, the shit feeling. All the boys probably get so used to the closeness and did not even bother to be sensitive to our feelings... TILL we showed them. Many times the "niceness" are taken for granted and treat it as "it-is-suppose-to-be-like-tat". Sometimes when we just got so pissed off, then they will crawl back and give us a hug. What for!! seriously, if you really do care and be more sensitive, you wouldn't even make that mistake in the first place, RIGHT? Are we thinking too much? Everyone is treating the girls as their brothers already. Though sometimes when you see us on the streets, people may think we are as close as a couple. Yup. Just because we are too close. Cindiie and I might even know the darkest secrets of them that even their gfs won't know.

We do have fun hanging out with the boys. Not pointing fingers at them, but i believe we girls too want someone to be there to love and care for us. We just want to feel special sometimes. Not only we don't get the special treatment, sometimes we are treated like shit. I'm sorry if its sounded too harsh/strong. I figured that we shouldn't be so nice to them after all. As much as how i noe i am soft hearted (yes, cindiie you are right), but we ought to give those guys out there a lesson.

Not denying there are some good times, and the lovin' times. I don't want to judge them. Give them the benefit of doubt. However, i just don't want me and my girls to suffer and always sparing a thought for them and not be appreciated. I hope they can prove me wrong. I do hope i'm wrong. =)

Happy Birthday Mike, Edwin and Boi.

2008-09-16T13:03:00.001+08:00

2008-09-13T03:56:00.002+08:00

Two days ago, i was looking for an envolope to send a top to my customer. While digging, i saw a stack of cards in the drawer. When i open them one by one, then i realise those were the cards i received on my 21st birthday. Thinking back, it was 2 years ago. As i open them one by one, i smiled. From church friends, to poly friends and even my uni friends. I am no longer close to most of them already. Everyone has changed. Including me. Probably, the only evangelite i really talk to now is joleen. I smiled at the card i received from kelvin and jiahao. Reminds me of those poly days. I smile at the little card joleen wrote to me, reminding me to be back into the ministry and serve God together with her once again. Yet, till when i read the last card, my heart ache. I have forgotten that i did received a card from him. Reading the familiar handwritting, the familiar style of expressing himself and the usual sign off with his self-owned "W".

Yes i may feel pain because of the fact that i'm no longer the one in his heart. Its even more painful to think that he is no longer serving God. I tried so hard to forget everything, its not an easy task. I guess this scar will always be there. I've learned alot. Many mistakes i've done and time and time again i allow things to happen.

I'll not make the first move. I will not ask "are we meeting?" just to remind you we are. I will not keep initiating the conversation or sms. I will not initiate to ask you out even if its convenient. I will not send another sms if the 1st one was not replied. I will not call if you said you will return my call when u didn't.

I think i need to protect myself and not let all these mistakes repeat themselves. I will be careful. This year, i'm 23. I blame no one. I understand the nature of human beings. I'm big enough to think. I will not let any guy bother me so much till i couldn't even think properly, couldn't even eat properly, couldn't even smile properly. Too many examples out there for me to learn.

I can be so angry and pissed off my good friend being emotionally unstable because of someone. Yet, i myself allow all those things to happen in the past. Knowing exactly things won't be the same again even if we get back together, yet i don't bear to call it to an end. I don't know if all these are what it is suppose to be.. But i'll still continue to live my life to the fullest. Not because of anybody, but because of me.

My trip to taiwan is confirmed. This getaway probably will be a good rest for me after my exams. It is longer than i've expected, but i'm glad i've decided to go. Have been looking for jobs now. Though i still have another semester next year, but hopefully i could get a job soon. I don't wish to burden my family any further. May God sees and guide me.

2008-09-09T05:14:00.012+08:00

RMIT Bash
6 Sept 2008

I attended my first RMIT bash. My first visit to zouk. haha... well well well... i know i sound "sua ku". Was suppose to be there at 8. But ALL of us were late. In the end, we didn't go for the bash. We went in around 10.30pm. First round @ winebar and thanks to Jane, we had a table inside zouk. Everyone was quite gone at the end of the night.. except me! haha...

The level zero is damn high. Look @ his face!

I really have no idea who made those tissue roses.. but i think its pretty!!! And i can't rem who snap this pic.. I'm not exactly ready man..

@ the dance floor. the girls of the night. Was sick of the "5/10" game when it turn out to be "35/40" game. Too many people.

Ruth was there too. She was with her friends and was at winebar before i reached. Just nice she was dressed according to the theme. "White bling bling"

My dear cindiie! She rejected my invitation initially and decided to come after the event. Haha.. But i'm glad u came dear. I had fun!

My new friend. Nichole. She is damn cute. Another chinying. I was like a baby sitter when hongyi is not around. Miss singapore universe.

The farrer bunch. Boi looks so happy. Where's cliff?

Went up to look for my classmates. Part of the Apricot crew. Look at our scholar. Its the first time i see some of my classmates so high...Its quite funny though...

@ winebar. The healthy group before cindiie came. The table is full of alcohol. I was thirsty then and there is no drinks for me. Argh!! Thank God there is still red bull. Haha..

Er.... this is the....Taiwan group? not complete lah.. In the process of planning..

All of us, with a few of the pool friends of Mike & Desmond.

We took more than 120 photos. Never smiled so much before. Over the weekends, my parents and my brother went to China. I was home alone.

After 2 tests last week, i decided to give myself a break. After the test on friday, i went KTV with jaecia and bunch. This time, no alcohol. Healthy. Hehe... Have been helping wenjie with his project. I was as "kan jiong" as him. It seems more like a group project man.. Hope i am of some help to him...

After those days...i was back to home alone. Started a new hongkong series. At least keep myself occupied before my parents n my bro is back. Exam time table is out. Time to study after 20 Sept, marketing project due. I'm really glad i had a good bunch of friends. The laughter always brightens up my day. Thank you guys.

2008-09-03T17:50:00.003+08:00

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing

I have a reason to worship

2008-08-31T14:38:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday my dear sherrie. Celebrated her birthday at modesto last night. I give myself 2 hours off from study just to be there for her on this special day. Hehe... I love you sherrie! We'll meet up to talk soon.

I was quite emo-emo this morning during service when pastor marion speaks about rapture. A sudden thought of the good old days in church where everyone is serving God faithfully. My prayer for them slowly came to a stop. Friends around me are drifting apart.. and i feel really sad for them. The thoughts of the past church camps, the amazing races, the gathering after heart.sports, the hang out after church. I miss those good old days @ SCGS. Back then, we're still so naive, so pure. When we grow up, our mind slowly fill with the things of the cruel world.. more responsibilities.. more uncertainties..

I was convicted. I want and need to get back to praying for them. Its only through prayer that my heart will continue to be soft for people. Thinking back, how much i was willing to do for them just to get them back to God. I feel so ashamed now. I don't even dare to speak up to them or rather ask them to come to church. Afraid of being rejected, i choose to bypass those opportunities. When Pastor Marion prayed for Zach and Lionel just now, tears just welled up. Someone whom was so inspired by the holy spirit can leave God.. Singing the songs that Zach wrote "I pray" and "cover me", the lyrics touched my heart.

Many things have happened in this 1 year plus. Mindset has changed, lifestyle has changed. I am starting afresh without him. My consistent prayer and persistent effort failed after so long. I am not sure if i will give him a smile when i see him on the streets. The "act-as-though-we-don't-know-each-other" sucks. From full of anger... to "because we've not been talking, so be it" kind of feeling. However, i really hope he will come back and serve God once again. Because only God can give you the true happiness. Even if i may not know when is the day or will not be there to witness it, but i will be smiling and be happy for you.

2008-08-31T04:21:00.003+08:00

Convocation 2008

Went to the RMIT convocation on friday @ SIM. I think i am more excited then those graduating. Hongyi and I purposely dress better that day just to take photos with our fellow friends. haha.. Congratulations to Jiahui, sharleen and Jaecia. Oh..not forgetting Leon too. These were the people i took photos with. The Atriam was so crowded that i could hardly breathe. Wanted to eat the buffet cuz rachel told me the day before that the food is good. Humph! Should have ate it on thursday.

Anyway, since i did not study the whole afternoon as i was busy walking around with jaecia and subsequently, busy taking pictures. I decided to give myself a day break from MC. After HOF, i went to meet them @ vivo. I went all the way down to vivo and there was a change of plan. SIAN. went back to the same place again..... Haiz....... Can we go to somewhere else???

Apricot & Shop with Joy had a good time @ Junction 461 in August. In September, we'll move to pushcart 4. Hope to see you again.. New stocks coming up! Stay Tune!

2008-08-28T16:02:00.005+08:00

Went to keppel Marina. I suggested to go there as i've not been there. Nice view.. good place for couples. But i went with hongyi & con... Wrong hor? but ok lah...they are nice..make me laugh that night.

Celebrated xiaoli's birthday on tuesday night. It was a last minute decision. Had a good chat with the ying and xiaoli. I do miss the old girls.... I'm tired of books and projects.. haiz...

2008-08-25T17:40:00.002+08:00

Weixiong's Birthday Celebration

Weixiong celebrated his birthday @ Lebar a week ago. I guess this is the first time where we'll have dinner b4 the drinking session. The food was good..just that the service sucks! Anyway we had fun!

After MC submission, i continue to rot in school everyday to mend my booth. Its an achievement to see the sales coming almost everyday. Although this is just a trial, but i'm happy because its the 1st time that i handle everything myself. Of cuz, not forgetting from the help of alvin to maintain the website. Hehe....

Was terribly sick yesturday!! I wasn't feeling well on friday, so i went back early to sleep. Plan to be at the booth on sat as my partners say there's crowd. However, i left school early as i'm meeting a buyer. Its quite fun to meet up with your buyers. They are rather young. Haha... i think the one i met on sat was like 16/17? Hehe... too bad.. its not wenjie's day. I think the one alvin saw was better.

Went to watch death race. i was really tired but i should say its a good show. Towards the end its kinda exciting. yup! walking aimlessly, we went to eat ice cream. It was still early then.. So we decided to give some friends a call. True enough, keith is the most "on" one.. He came down 1 hour later.. With his friends.. Raymond came to join us too. It was fun as it was not planned. Impromptu. haha..

Anyway, yesturday i went for a dinner. It was like a 7th mth auction dinner. Its quite an experience. Haha... Its an eye opener. They manage to get the martel @ 1288. well... i can sense another drinking session..

2008-08-21T19:18:00.002+08:00

Its good to have some catch ups with friends whom u seldom meet. Met jiahui and huizhen recently and our conversation never ends till one commented "its late, we need to go." Shuqun days will always be the period of time that i will miss. The laughter and teasing among one another.. Everyone was genuine. Less problems back then.

Time has changed. Hongyi was right. We change because the circumstances around us change too. People turn prettier, can dress up better, able to carry themselves better. Some changed because of what had happen to their life. Messed up and do not know where and who to turn to. Some living in denial. I can't help but to feel sorry and sad for them. Yet sometimes, i dun feel appreciated as a friend. I did my best to be someone whom my friends can rely on. I try my very best to be there.

Listening to the heart revolution disc that ting chun forwarded through email. It never fail to encourage me. When was the last time i went for the Festival of praise... I miss the feeling. Looking forward to HOF tomorrow.

Projects and tests coming!!! Give me a break...

2008-08-11T03:23:00.003+08:00

Had a Pre-National day celebration with them @ le bar. It was quite a fun night as i saw a few of my classmates there..surprisingly. Haha... They were quite "hard core" that day when most of them were quite gone at the end of the day. Its nice to meet them once in awhile. Zhen commented that i look different...probably because of the late nights. Hmm...i need to tune back my time so tat i can wake up early.

Pushcart business is still alright. I'm quite happy but i believe could do better. I'm trying to source for better goods and a cheaper price. We have a regular customer!! haha.... Alvin get to know a new friend. He better thank me for that man...Hee... Hoping to go to KL soon.. Speak to Alvin and hongyi just now.. We're planning for the year end trip. Everything is yet to confirm.... But i'm quite excited about it. =)

KTV with alvin and his friend David just now. Issn't good to not feel anything when singing.. Esp those sad songs. I should say i'm feeling better now. At least i won't feel sad while singing jay chou songs..

A brand new week. God is good after all.

2008-08-08T03:24:00.006+08:00

Singfest 2008

Had a wonderful time at singfest last weekend. Though i was dead tired, but i enjoyed myself to the very bit. I had barely enough sleep from friday to sunday. The 1st day was more of rock bands. So there were bands like Simple plan, travis and etc.. Cindiie, diane and I stopped working since 8 plus and we joined the crowd, enjoying the concert.

However, the 2nd day was boring. Cindiie and I were separated and we were in-charge of Registration. It was damn boring. And the crowd was crazy on the 2nd day. People were rushing like mad to the field just to get a good spot. One republic, Pussycat dolls and Alicia keys were the few highlights of the night. I manage to sneak in to watch the pussycat dolls. They were sexy! And i mean it.

Manage to see gret that day at singfest. I knew she was going, so was looking out for her. Manage to catch up with her after the concert (through the phone as i was doing closing). Hopefully can meet up with her 1 day. Haha...But we never get to meet though we kept saying..haha...

Sherrie's engagement party

This was a collage of sherrie's engagement party @ Loyang Valley. The Function room was nice! Perfect for a party. Hehe... I'm really happy for you sher. At least i know you've found yourself a great partner.

My Life

Its back to projects and tests once again. I thank God for a good start of my pushcart business. It was rather chaotic during the first few days as we don't really know what to do. But it somehow got settled now. It will be "school everyday" for the next 2 months. Projects meeting will most probably held in school.

People around me have been changing day by day. Heard a lot these few days. Certain things that i didn't expect it to happen, happened. I'm disappointed in a way because i care for these people. I got pissed also because i care. It has become rather scary and it has come to a point where i could ask myself "Am i the only one feeling this way or are those people around me acting wierd?"

"Am i being abnormal for being normal or are they really acting in a way where they shouldn't?" It emotionally stirs me quite a bit and at the back of my mind was "WHAT ARE THEY DOING?!" Why do people change so drastically.

I thank God i met jiahui just now. She reminded me of prayer. I have been complaining and complaining. But i've not prayed for them. Its really time to get down on my knees to really pray for every single one. I'm sad... Because i've seen who they use to be...

Have been coming home late these few days. Not because of projects. I'm actually feeling helpless for not being able to help much. I listened, I understand. But i don't want to shout and say "Hey! You should have stop all these!" Because i know exactly how difficult it is to get out of these "greyish status". I'm pissed because she's causing all these shit and causing all the emotions outbreak. Not once but a few times. Till i didn't know what to do.

I'm trying my best to cheer this friend up! Don't she dare to drag this even longer.

Argh! I just couldn't believe that I'm so affected.

2008-07-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

I wanted to blog about this since sunday. Yet, i do not have the courage because i don't know if i can do it. Sunday's sermon wasn't about forgiveness, but it somehow link to it and i have this strong feeling, that i need to forgive. Forgive that someone that i thought i did not bear a grudge on.

I finally realised that if i don't forgive him, i won't be able to walk out of this shit. If i don't forgive, i won't be able to move on. But what can i do? Besides asking God for help.

I've been trying for the past few months... Trying very hard. I feel ok when i gets busy..but i know its not the right way. I'm not healing..but rather let busyness numb my feelings.

Yet, at the a positive side, I thank God for what has happen. I learned more.. I learned to be stronger.. And i've learned to see the other side of man.

Its not a coincidence that i'll get to dream of him last night.

A last bye to him. Forever.

I know the day that i forgive is the day that i have put this whole thing down. There's a lot of questions in mind but i'm not that kind that will force for an answer. Because i know ultimately, I will get hurt. Just let my imagination do the job....

A project due tomorrow. I need to start working.. Concentration..

2008-07-31T20:44:00.003+08:00

I've been waiting for the change, for the change of "status".

Finally. I've waited.

Finally. He has changed.

Finally. I know how it feels.

Congrates.

2008-07-25T05:42:00.003+08:00

I am not sure if its the late nights that trigger my emotions.. Accumulated maybe. Projects started piling up, not much of honeymoon period already actually. Somehow i feel more emotional...or rather some people say "PMS". I tend to get irritated easier.. Sorry guys but i'm not sure why.

Actually sometimes when i'm driving home, i still feel something. Exact words to describe the feeling? I don't know. what kind of feeling? I don't know. Sour? abit. Lonely? abit. Sometimes i still feel i'm in a holiday mood. So much of fun last 2 weeks. Back to reality. Focus Bee...

Push cart business coming up next month. More things to prepare. Don't know why i start to doubt myself.. whether i can sell my stuffs. I really don't have much confidence. I need prayer..

I hate to doubt about something. Because it hinders my path. I need the confidence. I need the peace I've been longing to have.

Probably I'm just tired.

2008-07-21T01:20:00.007+08:00

19 July 2008

-Farrer-mac + 2 UOLs-

Last stop. Dinner with SIM friends. We had "zi cha" at "sin hoi san". Its near tiong bahru. We had a few good dishes, for example the la-la and the pork ribs. But the kang kong was damn spicy. Cindiie happily cleared the dish. Haha...

I took this opportunity to ask ah boy to sing for me. Heard he can sing, but i've yet to hear him live! After dinner, we went to a small ktv pub which boy frequent to. His voice really POWER. He can sing really well. Hongyi was saying boy just came here to entertain us with his singing. Good job boy!

We left quite early but hongyi left with my car key!! While waitin for him, cindiie mike and me entertained ourselves. We took lots of pictures and alot of jumping. Mike and I sweat like nobody's business. Yet it was fun.

Agnes B. keychain from cindiie & mike. But i guess soon...its from all of them. Haha... I love the card cindiie!! thanks for being so sweet. Thank you guys for the dinner!